Always Alone

Goiâni

in a way I had never seen, in silence, when we reached the top of the mountain we had the perspective of what was clearer and clearer, whatever it was, it hadn't been the guys in the alley, and it hadn't been only in the village. From the top of the mountain we could see the highway for kilometers and for kilometers all we could see were crashed cars, one on top of

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re is not even close to the co

phone from his pocket

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ouds are gathering, I think that rain will come later, the crazy weather of this city. Vitor is leaning on me shoulder to shoulder, he is shaking, the call drops and he c

y bro, she

cri

ling your mom, Philip?

age I dial her number. The phone calls and calls until it goes to v

esn't a

e again. Laura takes the cell phone out of her pocket and

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tation, firefighters, SAMU, I called some

silia, her phone do

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rs a little

ere are the bodies? It's as if ever

ast, Goiânia in summer, out of nowhere the rain simp

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t far fr

f cars crashed on top of each other prevents us from continuing. Laura approaches the cars and

g to have t

ne, opens it, drinks a little, and hands it to Vitor, who also drinks. We go around the outside o

ik

Laura without unders

I guess you don't know ho

our h

to your mother V

ts it and accelerates against the metal door that folds like paper, an alarm star

me find t

down several aisles until we find a corri

y ass if she finds out

a sm

her it was

Vitor speaks again and this makes

w a sh

ough side street

ven know

eception desk and get a lunch box that my mother left with a friend of hers who worked at the

e arrived at the

Goian

t on my bike and go through the side of the gate and accelerate towards the house of my mother's boss. We stop in front of the house, dozens of other cars parked in front of the house, we enter through the back and pass through the garden where a large table

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my mother's uniform. I run and grab the uniform, hu

ommy pl

he uniform the rosary that she always wears falls to t

t's not

nd, I have never seen my mother w

e, she shouldn't

re food than any of these playboy bastards could eat. I pul

be lying down, not s

up to me

please

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the pill in

help, com

tart to understand. That's it, how come I didn't think of it befo

up with them in the clouds to meet the Lord in th

lonians

ugh, I didn't deserve it, Mom help me, take me. La

Laura, we stayed,

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