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I go back to the kitchen and in the most respectful way possible I put the ashes in the vase, on the floor near me is the crucifix that my aunt always used, I cover the vase and wrap the crucifix around it. She was always kind to me, always worried, I know that she always made extra food knowing that I was going to eat there, and the clothes that she gave me, saying that they didn't fit Vitor, we are the same size, always angry, alw

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arrive at the mall, the largest in the city, we break the gate and enter the outdoor parking lot that is empty, We go down the access ramp to the underground parking lots, empty and illuminated only by the emergency lights that give the place

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welry has always been my weak point. And of the classic gems, rubies are my favorite. I break the window display to look at this beauty up close. They are beautiful gems with few impurities, an intense red, in jewelry they call this color pigeon blood and the cutting of these stones was done by a great artist. I put the choker on my neck, the delicious sensation of the cold metal on my skin and the soft weight of the piece on my neck. I leave the jewelry store, walking down the hallway I find a security guard's uniform lying on the floor, there is a holster with a pistol in it. I

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and we reach a big metal door, with a red light indicating emergency exit, the door leads to a metal staircase tha

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e nice to me. We arrive at the car, I'm out of breath and with the title of the priest's wife. We are lucky, we managed to get to Alphaville with relative ease, but the jeep is already gone, the radiator got stuck while I was trying to get a car out of the way. We finish the last 500 meters to the gate on foot, the boys walk beside me under the starry sk