What We Want

scoffed, so loud that he stared at me like a weirdo. I

o good. Well, it's not like I actually know anything about him but his pancakes are damn good. I w

asked referring

me", I added with a knowing smile. Panca

o what do you r

all me Faye? He notice

tiny note to me with an amused expression. I opened the note and i

r and tried to calm my nerves. I could make due with a glass of wine right now, my eyes searched the kitchen to find my route to complete relief. I went to the fridge and opened it, damn this dud

g. My eyes then met his and he looked totally undisturbed but appeared to b

I slyly settled my gaze on him, feelin

balls. " My name's Faya and no

s business. I'm here and in charge. Faye's stupi

self. Oh God.. it's been so long I had a little treat. This feels nice. I threw out the cushion pillows and l

rom behind made me feel a tinge o

like he's nothin

re the accident?" He now sat beside

.." I giggled.

to talk about

happened if Abel didn't

Who's

."I winced, of course I remember it all.

r glass full of wine as I tried t

at the same time, tried to think of what

He pr

e whole world is light and weightless. He came close and robbed me of my gla

nough Faye," he tried t

Faye.." I slipped in a

have had so m

u.. I'm not.." I giggled more. "

en. "Y.. you.. cute asshole!" I smiled at his features. Even in my state, I resolved that with that cuteness? He's worth a thousand

world can wait. I feel him grab me like a baby. I loved the feel of him against

een here all day? Soft groans escaped my throat. Have I been sleeping all day? He's

n angel or something?" I mumbled un

watching me for?" I aske

He said and moved away from

u going?" I a

u think I should put myself to g

self in the mirror, my eyes were puffy and my face, pale. I looked terrible plus I felt hungover. How long has it been since I actually took good care of myself? I walked out of the washroom and then sat on the bed as I noticed a crumpled paper on the bed table, I grabbed it and read its content. A wave o

e times than I'm comfortable admitting for loving him so much. I bit

because I feel so tired and exhausted that it hurts. It hurts so deep I clutched my throat so as to not weep and scream out at the top of my lungs. I'm used to doing that too because I've cried myself to sleep on nights that see

he was beside me

sked softly. "Faye.. open

tears rushed down my face completely dre

eyes to meet his. My eyes was already burning with probing tears but I could tell he was disturbed and.

raped me." I tried to meet his eyes but couldn't, how can I? How can I even accept myself.. I'm not the same. I can't be whole again

eel better but it only made me more weak. I've always been weak against Abel and everything he did to me and I never stood up or de

my efforts, he took it all for granted. He made me beg for his love. It's all my fault, I didn't back off when I should and the first time he made me cry, I defended him and stuck so close like bubble gum

l I was calm enough to pull out. I avoide

ispered like he was unsure at the word 'define'. "Don't let it," he added as a genuine smile played at his lips.

s on my face and caressed my right chee

choice and get ready. We're going on a trip". He spoke and left my

s?" He stopped by the door not looking at me. His shou

athroom to shower. Several thoughts ran through my mind and I know I shouldn't trust him but something tells me I could and that it's safe to.