Summer Fling

. My windows are all open it's 2am right now, I have turned off the lights in my room

tering all over my apartment. My head was buzzy, it took me a good moment to process all the things that happened yesterday. I was lying on the floor, phone or alarm was buzzing somewhere, there were 4 bottles of drinks lying beside me. I toss on my back, phone was still buzzing, staring blankly at the ceiling my mind roam around yesterday moment. Was that real? It felt almost like dream, but in my dreams she used to be alone, it wasn't a dream, and she has a daughter, a husband (which I can never be), a happy family which I could never give her. My thoughts stops wandering when someone opened my door. I narrowed my eyes and realized it was Sam; he has my additional keys, as do Jacks. "Dude I thought you are dead", he looks scared, like he really thought I am dead. He asked, "What's wrong with you?" between me and the empty bottles on the floor. I try to ignore it by standing from the floor and saying, "not a big deal, just got a little drunk." "Oh no, we aren't lying now, you have never take a leave without informing,and it's past 12pm and you didn't pick up my call, never got drunk like this, it's definitely a big deal" What it's past 12pm? I slept that long?", no doubt my head is hammering. He shake his head, pressing his lips in a thin line,"go get fresh, I will make you some hangover soup and you are telling me everything, you got it?" He was looking at me sympathetically, he knows about Lizzie, 1 am too emotional when 1 got drunk and Sam and I knows each other since more than a 4 years, and in that span of time, I have told him about her, that how I was fool enough to let her go,