I sat on my bed thinking about my life and what I am living for. I am mentally drained from the death of my father. I still can't believe it is real.
It all started on this rainy day, I wasn't at home the day it happened. I was at Jamila's place.
When I came back from Jamila's place my Mom told me, she heard a knock on the door and when she opened the door, It was a soldier who came to announce to us that my dad, her husband was dead.
He told my mom that my dad had died at the war front.
Mom and I cried our eyes out and I cried my eyes out too because how was I going to survive and now I don't have a daddy?
My dad was my best friend and lover and now he is gone.
I felt really sad. How was I going to cope? I just hope everything worked out well because it's all draining.
My door creaked open revealing my mom Mrs Rita. "Becky, dress up quick, we are going to Emily's place. Her mom just called to tell you that Jamila is sick. Be quick, let's go and visit her."
"What's wrong with her mom?" I immediately became worried. Jamila was one of my favorite cousins and I really enjoyed her company a lot.
"I don't know, just get dressed. We have to go quickly." My mom immediately left me to prepare.
On our way to Visit Jamila, we stopped by the mall and got her a gift. I bought her a get well soon card and a gift.
When we got there, we met Jamila's mom, Mrs Florence and she looked really worried.
I moved into Jamila's room and saw that she really looked ill. "Jamila, how are you?" I asked her.
"I'm not really good. The doctor says it is typhoid and I've got a severe headache too." She told me and her voice was really faint.
"I'm really sorry Jamila. Here, I got you this. Please get well soon".
I handed the gift over to her and she tried to give a smile but it was faint.
"Thank you Becky" Jamila said as she received the gift and opened it.
We stayed for an hour at Jamila's place before we left. I didn't even feel like leaving Jamila in that condition. I wanted to spend the day and time with her but mom told me we had to go and that she had an appointment to handle.
Because of that, I agreed to go home with her. When we got home she told me that she was leaving me alone and that she wanted to go on a date to see her new lover.
"Mom!!?, Are you for real?" I couldn't believe my ears. If she really wanted to go on a date she could have gone and let me be at Jamila's place.
"So you mean after seven months of Dad's death you have fallen in love with another man? come on mama?" I said with pain and anger in my voice.
But I immediately felt bad because I might have hurt my mom but I can not take it back. What is said can not be reversed.
"I know how you feel but I...' my mom couldn't find the right words so she immediately broke down in tears.
"Hey, I'm sorry mom. I just, I don't know I am sorry I didn't mean to hurt you Mom" I said to her.