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ity guard two floors down, and a spreadsheet I no longer had the
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of the house. Can
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as loose, messy, like she hadn't planned this. Or maybe sh
he quieter roads that wrapped around the
with arguments and too quiet with loneliness. The water didn't fix an
hed the end of the pier, where the boa
ees up to her chest. I stood a few fe
u're living someone else'
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auditioning for, and now the script is locked
besi
. "More often
aniel, he was warm. Kind. Poor, but full of dreams
ice wa
erything. And I
it me like
d. "Not really. Not the me I've grown into. Just
the way she touched her ring absentmindedly when she was anxious, or
I di
sound like betrayal-
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sn't uncomfortable. It pu
hick with sal
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this?"
t blink.
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t. I co
ing and the last thing before sleep? That your loyalty is beginning to split like ice under p
o hurt anyone,"
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out and touc
quite intimate. N
go," she
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h we tell ourselves
eady losing t
orning, Da
come by the hou
ened. "Sure. E
st wanted to run some ideas
felt like a blade
answered
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id, like my name
me. Said somethi
ght. "Right. Of
e framed wedding photo on the side table. Him in a navy tux. Her in
n a cast iron pot. "You're early," he said chee
smile and
s weirdly
conversation while my insides screamed. It felt like being cast in a p
el leaned back and said, "Yo
sed halfway
d her wine. "
d easily. "I'm glad
cation wa
phasis mad
"Daniel, did you tell Elija
nsion. I listened, nodded, added insight where nece
her leg brushed mine under the table. The way trust,
on my shoulder. "You're like family,"
odd
hing in m
as already
days passed
y. But there were emails. Office moment
t it wou
e thing
n the dark, fed by
the night
at you
ment we fi
we nearly did-a
. She came by the office "on her way from a gallery." Her lips
said, standing
st
ide. Closed the
ank to a single b
ing company. That night at the dock.
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epped
know it's wrong. I kno
rd. "Then why
nd for the first time,
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th
kiss
desperate. Fierce. Hungry with a
issed h
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ed away. He
n't,"
glassy. "We
ed and w
he taste of guilt and longi
t, I didn
iling and counted
a poor defense
denied too long,