My 40 Days With You ( Book 1 )

eel sad. The emptiness inside me starts to buil

ife want t

. I miss eating with her, I miss her smile, voi

ntly gaslight myself, thinking I would only ruin

shness or s

freeze. I don't run away to cover myself from th

d that. The only thing I know i

fever, but even though I didn't feel

e about my physical health. Gettin

get out of our house, Grandma's house to

feel. Thankfully, I reach our room and sit down without fainting. I e

kay. This

back in my chair, and

eps in front, I open my eyes and f

look ahead. I weakly slap

to spin when I see Eloise go to the front. It

yes meet. I can't see her facial expres

ears. My head feels like it's about to split f

ssmates rushing to my side. Out of everyone around me, I can

ing weakens. My mind goes completel

e my eyes again when my head starts to ache again. I touch

iately realize I'm in the hospi

rested in the clinic at school. If I was there,

d stare at the ceiling. I hope my parents don't k

I sit up in the hospital bed in shock wh

tact. She places the plastic bags on the be

oking at me with concern. She holds

afraid that if I take my eyes off her, she'll dis

rowns, picks up the apple from the pl

alize she's really here, and

ut when she doesn'

puts it on a plate, Eloise places the

when I hear Eloise's unusu

lips and without hesitation, hug her. She sobs h

her back. It feels like my heart is being stabbe

each other, but she refuses.

dn't know. If I-if I only knew..."

. It feels like the sky has fallen on me

he closes her eyes, feel

..." I whisper to myself, but it'

ith her worried eyes again.

ell me?" Tears run

loudly at Eloise's words. I don't

ean?" I try to

ven more intensely. My breathing beco

s, "The doctor said it could get worse if it's not t-

breath to try to process everything. I can't believe I sha

ven harder. What if Mom finds out? Or maybe she already knows? I don't want her to get hurt..

ck happening in my life, but I can't. El

wipes the tears from my eyes. I s

loise, especially now that I've found someone

dy promised myself that I would st

e to kneel and beg God to heal me, I'll do it. I just