My 40 Days With You ( Book 1 )

eye bags, my body is also incredibly thin. I notice the weig

nything, I still have insecurities like everyone else. M

en my physical appearance. What I crave fo

Dad. If he cared for us, he would have shown up here immediately and apologized to Mom. Even if he just apologized

ght to the table to eat with Grandma a

ar?" My grandmother ask

"It's okay,

gaze so she won't see the swelling in my

eye. I don't want her to see me in my vulnerable sta

linic, we haven't spoken. Eloise has been absent for a few days, making it impossible f

use I feel guilty about what I did to her.

y heart sinks further into sadness. I want to message her, but I can't.

ont. I try not to think about my problem

ne and go up to the rooftop. I sit near the barrier whi

el the pain again. I massage my he

g else. It's getting worse every day, and I don't wan

gradually subsides. After finishing m

n my face. I start to fall asleep, but my

muster my courage so I can chat her first, and thankfully

er lip when I see her walking towards me. I feel like I'm going to faint from n

at am I going to say? That my dad is a cheater, that I'm jealous of the guy with her, and that I always have a headache, so I did that to h

about what happened on the rooftop,

the food in front of me. S

he laughs to lighten

ooks taken aback when she see

omething unforgivable." I unfortunately stutter. Eloise is the only one who c

dn't know what was happening in your life. Maybe you were going through something that

id her. I can't ruin her life. My life is too messy to be this

I can be someone you can lean on." I can almost fee

much pain on you, and I

've said. But I ignore it as much as I can. Everyone who'

I will only bore her and waste her time,