My Plan To Death

as holding another

become the pain he could never f

's your medicine.

te pill bottle and

and, I could finally prepare

was about

taxi, I stared at the mes

uet tonight. I

f banquet it was. It was H

She dated Mia only for a year and had h

from 21 to 27, but all that meant nothin

lived throug

ed Hailee, and I died

d and jumped

ed not

d I acce

again, back when Mi

as twenty-one. He had just started his busin

daughters, while his famil

e in each othe

even reached the point

t that banquet when Hail

e also confessed her lingering

y six years of youth became the p

the Morrison family, living a life of luxury

grace, Hailee left the country,

ch was why I entered hi

an needed a scapegoat, and that one year they shared, once ch

all in love, watched them

s the sweet memories

ed in the sickly sweetness of their lo

ietly, bidi

art into Mia, becoming a part of his world

naïve Mia wa

jected me again and again, a

as proven through unw

y, Mia ac

side through h

tory unfolded jus

reneur, he rose step by step

tarted planning our future together, we had

by, we've

axi's horn interr

e, the chat history

sage was sen

ou up? Don't drink too mu

dn't r

d did something I had never

gan at thi

ts flickering like restless spa

his back to me, dressed in a suit that made him

ack dress that also clashed with th

nding them were a

from his days as the rich he

ouldn't see anything noteworthy. But t

one on, their voices

lee stood up and presse

zoomed in, and ca

expression, but Hailee's

held the phone, my h

n't aware of, there had always been

omething, Mia t

at lower and

n't se

d I shared, the emptine

ence was far f

he couch, staring at the clo

f the door unlocking

Mia, throwing myse

hand gently brus

ce resonated

earing shoes? You

rushing over the spot Hailee ha

gone so long, and you di

e. Instead, he carried me to the

ightly, feelin

you saying

hair, looking

I didn't drink, and my phone was o

d in his eyes, I co

re lying,"

nstead acted as I always did

ng, Mia left f

climbed out of bed an

ed documents and class

s. Each one was filled with my innermost t

t, I experienced a love I had

by Mia's side through his lowest p

is heart still be

wondering if this ti

with Hailee stepping into our home, wearing the wedding dress I had ordered, and them kissi

He should be tormented d

and my hand traced the ph

ovement felt like a knife c

ad grown numb

aw a girl kiss him. She was

, I wrote a few

suffocation war

yet I couldn't he

ry and returned

t makeup, I slipped

n the mirror, a stark contra

n the mirror mirrored my

ented my smile, sayi

k to life, I didn't

-wrenching sobs reminded me that I was

me remember Mia's coldn

e house, I went

ognized me, but their

a hu

urned out,

came the sound of

ng at the same table, sharing a meal. Hailee picked

l bit into the carro

t like c

y sides, opened and th

shed the door open, stormed toward Ha

end? Why did you act so shameles

belief, as though she couldn

tarted crying uncontrollably, her face tear-s

u're hitting me. We're just good frie

ned t

long time before

an old friend of mine. You can't just hit her

he lunchbox trembl

're lyin

into an awkw

wore down Mi

eone, you need to apolog

table with his fingers,

saw him l

win his favor, but he had been unyielding, refusing to budge no matter what I

ly the same the

all for

, rising to my eyes and t

but I forced myself

sor

, and a smile app

t down and e

r voice cheerful and

t this meal especially for Mia

eyes brimming with und

nd didn't cause

er hand, seemed

he table. Mia seemed to re

brought him lunch every day.

he ate Hail

d said, "I came to bring you lunch. Since you'v

but only managed to

left withou

, tears finally sl

exchanged glances, and I for

till hear the

official girlfriend can't ev

CEO. That woman in the office is his ex-girlfriend. They wer

who will the C

fficial girlfriend

s pitiful

huckle and walked ou

ing, and I raised my h

you like to

on in a bear costume waddling to

he handed me. It wa

k it out.

. It was when Mia and I were

like a furnace. I had endured

and was about to leave when

a beauti

words echoing

d a beautiful

asked inst

e brushed against my cheek as the p

tter if you weren't cr

daze, feeling the dam

n? I shouldn't be

on my face. I hugged the person in the

nk y

as losing

d out flyers one by one, greet

me to

y head an

he shuffled around in his bulky c

s what it felt lik

ok off the bear costu

ttle of water he had

air damp, and the hair

tissue and ha

his face, and push

ul, completely different fr

ed a hand in front of my face, grinning. "A

expression m

s hand away

self. I'm heading home. You

ver honked i

im and got i

g the bear costume, his back to the sett

that his smile w

stifling bear costume to

been stifling,

ndless complaints and his

I had been thi

ce it would be if someone

ng about Mia aga

eyes again. They we

, I didn'

e, it felt as

riend request on social media. I a

at she wa

e enough, there was a cheeky

al someone! Even the

lasses of lemonade and a

man's hand. It w

h to remove the wat

n my diar

tead. That woman even fed him carrots, which he doesn't like. I was so angry th

ay, Mia rare

ep, and even sleepin

off, only to wake up from nightma

clumps, and my wei

including how I would eventually die

would think of how I used to be as radiant and confident as

lans quickly. I was afraid I would

going to happe

ade mall would become