To Our Pinky Promises

head down. For some reason, I fe

scending way. I meant that in a 'ever

em and stared in a way that scream

ed at one point but it had ended years ago so I don't quite remember how I should act to cope with bullying. I mean who would've thought that I'd get bullied as a f

nights ago. I was laughing at something, looking at Ty as I slightly leaned at him, my elbow nudging his side as we stood just outside of the door to t

ds 'PARTY SLUT' were print

y happened. But it was easy enough to understand why people was gossiping about me. I knew I didn't do shit with T

ay, I fel

just stricter on myself more than anyone else because I was raised

r watched. Note the heavy sarcasm here. I knew it was pointless because I already knew who did this and I knew I

aven't passed my locker and seen the decorations, they've probably received a soft copy of

s just something about being humiliated this way. Maybe it was because I've forgotten what it feels like to feel bullied and am no longer numb against it. I didn't know ho

s. I didn't want anymore of my pictures to be taken and printed to be pasted on my locker door an

hings, I simply hugged my bag to my chest and scurried

cled it a few times, trying to f

overing it from view. There was a fire escape door right by the hidden corner but unless God decided to light the

udent's dream for their school to catch on fire one day and have school cancelled for the rest of the year; I'd be even more delighted if the fire would melt my locker and burn th

anicking and be too busy trying to s

What can you do about being humiliated? I wasn't the type of girl to pick fights. I avoid confrontations u

ne went the extra mile to hurt me was that I'

I muttered angrily at myself as

gs to myself, the fire emergency exit door that I

se, it

, after all. Again,

urned to see who came out of

tleman, then walked out the last p

nder

foot like it weighed nothing and st

ut a box of cigarettes and a lighter. He took a cig out of the box

the cig away from his lips

ough the gap between his lips. He flicked the cig, something that looked

ight of me crouching by the bush, watching him silently the entire time. I didn't m

anquility in me, it was more the expression he had on his face. It was the lack of the creases on his forehead and

matter how much I brushed away my tears, I will still look lik

lone in this hidden corner. My legs started to ache from crouching so long so I just decide

ound and get snuffed out by the sole of his shoe before h

nd sat beside me, facing the

' He asked, s

prise wore off. 'They

w people are. I've long accepted that but I guess it's still hard to be okay with it. But neither of us

a of who it was. After all

an I have, had a crush on him. This was public knowledge and Diana was my friend. When I started getting close to

asically hated my guts ever since. It's been 4 year since everything happened so obviously, she's moved on, but I was fore

r since but she's never slammed

definitel

sn't his fault that this was happening and I knew he didn't wa

ght have heard guilt in his tone. But I didn't want to make wild guesses

hat he won't be able to get through her. She has no leftover fe

t knowing what to say, so i

king the shift in the m

to do,' I pursed my lips, trying to do a smile. I g

walked backwards, 'uhm,

as Alex head tilted to the sid

o fist, trying to stop myself from hitting my

Alex, yo

ilding, my unspoken guess was

arties with EDM blasting through the speakers has damaged some of the

see her leave the party with like 3 other guys aside from the one that was in the p

irst sentence or curling up into a ball and cry at how m

ect her like, 'For your goddamn information

ere directed at me, made by the guys, was so off pu

and a tall wall with broad shoulders covered

ple 'Mind your own business,' had the girl th

their own shit again, I finally felt li

ds that came out of my m

now you might've changed, but I haven't. I would still li

t surged back to me got redirected and

xplanation or an apology from me

row as I stood there on my own, staring a

y, and I'd be lying if I sai

to know how much I misse

dn't want to

n twice. There wasn't a

ve trouble eating, falling asleep. I'd constantly wonder what I did wrong, what I could've done

f I can go thr

, but this time