I lost my dad to the cold hands of death two years after I was born and that only made me not meet my dad . I grew up with my mom being my backbone , my sole provider of everything that I needed and asked for in my entire life . All my life I had grown up to see that woman as my idol , she was my god in human form , never had I felt that way for anyone the way that I felt for her . Growing up , she made sure that she never got married to any man and focused all her attention on me and made sure that I lacked nothing and I had literally everything that I needed .