The Cold Shoulder

I downed another cup of beer down my throat half way, smiling lazily to myself. Life isn't all that hard. It's a wonder what a bottle of beer could make you forget. I had left Remi and his overly pretty secretary like four hours ago or something.

Maybe then they could do what ever they wanted to do in peace without any intrusion. And without a black girl ruining their moment.

Don't blame me. I felt left out. It's all not just fear. No. But I didn't care, not then. I was drunk and happy. Remi could go to hell for all I cared and that 'sexy' Lauren too. I hated her. like... like .. um.... so much, with so much disgust as I would gaze down on dog's poop beneath my shoe

There was just one thing that didn't make sense. My feelings and my heart. I had no idea how many times it would broken.

I pushed back my chair. It was time to go home. I still lived with my parent, if I did not heavens knew I would have been dead. Suicide no need to even think about it. As senseless as I was that moment, I knew the implication it was to arrive home late. Mom would kill me

She'd just rant that's all. I was the last born, out if two. My elder sister, Ella was over seas enjoying her life in..... what was the name of the country again? Georgia! with her newest boyfriend.

The ought to have gotten married but she was frolicking with them. Btb, mom cares a lot about me and Dad too. I love them both. But there was this part of me that needed love too. But not from them.

I staggered away from the place as I had paid whatever amount it was earlier before I started drinking. I twirled my car keys in my finger as I tried to place one leg before the other as I sang.... Jealously jealously jealously..... underneath my breath. One African song like this.

I was giddy, Yes that was the power of alcohol. So beautiful. I stopped to gaze at the beautiful sky for a moment and almost fell but quickly regained my footing. I strolled clumsily into the parking lot. " Now where is that car " I mumbled and squinted my eyes as I walked past cars to recognize the butt of mine.

" Ah, there it is. ". I laughed to myself as I fiddled with the key in my hand looking for the button to press, to automatically open the doors. I finally found it after sometime and strolled to the drivers side. Just as I was about opening, another car drove in recklessly into the spot beside my car. I squinted my eyes at it to get a good look at the stupid driver. Did he want to bang my car?

" Hey idiot! Do you know you should be sued? I was just about to open the door of my car. What if your stupid car had bashed it? it would have caused you a lot. Do you know who I am? "

I asked drunkenly, slapping at the window of the ' idiot's ' car

" You have no respect " I was ranting. The man or guy or whatever alighted from the drivers side and came over.

" I am deeply sorry. I didn't me ---- "

" Shut up! " My eyes vision was blurry but I said anyways " you're an idiot " Staggering backwards