Project Lazarus

side of the bed, facing the wall, but I wasn't asleep. Not even close. My eyes

meone pretending to be asleep. And maybe that's what got to me. Or maybe it was just m

slowly and tur

s resting near his side, fingers curled just a little. He looked peaceful, but not like before. Bef

anym

hes away, but he

eetlamp outside hit his cheekbone. He looked the same. Same thick lashes. Same small scar ab

same. I didn't car

husband... b

pered. Just to

move. No

again, a little

, his ey

because... the way he looked at me felt off. His

adn't jus

'd been

, I didn

anything. Just

ervously.

y. Then said, "Yeah. J

at?" I as

used.

t that, but the rest

am?" I asked, for

ceiling. "I don't remembe

. "Well, was I nice i

to face me, then gave the fai

t feel like

like...

ed. "Can'

he said calmly

ough I'd barely said his name. "Sor

Then, out of nowhere, he asked, "Why

iffe

d you I'm okay. The accident didn't kill me. I'm heali

d. That I was watching him because he didn't feel like the man I married. That every time he look

n't say a

ispered, "I'm

ned. "O

thing's st

he reached out and touched my cheek. His fingers were warm, but the touch d

d, voice low. "You jus

yes burning

t know anyt

never happened. He didn't roll over to hold me. He didn't w

ward the window and let th

he acted like ev

re I was done brushing my hair. He smiled at me when I came in, his shir

didn't

he asked, pour

I lied

ve had i

"You don't reme

e, confused. "

st night," I said ca

sual. "Don't remember that. Ar

d. "No.

he said with a shrug, then wen

He looked at me like he didn't trust me-

the way he chewed, even the way he swallowed-

uddenly, catch

sked, raisin

ered, looking awa

r. "You sure you're okay?

"Just tired. Bee

es on me like he was trying to re

he watching me the wa

droom. Closed the door. Stood there

ow what was

had come back to me... wasn

ughed at the funny parts. He leaned on me once or twice and

ts he used to love. He just stared at the scr

going to bed early. I stayed back a w

the room, he was already a

I didn't ca

t the doorway.

dn't help

my Harry

this man l