Jane Lends A Hand
ront of the door of the big oven. There was an expression of such dogged concentration on his face, such fierce intensity in the grim frown between his e
household who had gathered in the kitchen-Aunt Gertrude, Jane, Elise, and ruddy little Anna, the bouncing little as
ced Jane, glancing at the clock. Paul
n you not hold
answered Ja
aking th
eve to see if it fits." Elise was engaged in making over one of her mother's gowns into a school-dress fo
oven-door with his apron, he flung it open; a
e simply beamed with pride as a chorus of "Oh's" and "Ah's" greeted his first real triumph. Five big
a better one myself, have I Elise? No, not even you
d out his b
"I'm the boss around here, and I
ade a spring for him, and flinging both arms aro
uld do it! I s
eaked h
ou couldn't learn to bake an article like that in a lif
o a skill and care that not many people could give. Repeated failure had made Paul moody; he had even begun to think that his lack of success was attributable to some deep-rooted weakness in himself. He had, in fact, begun to give it quite an important significance; and, in his earnestness, had even gone to the length of making a curious pact with himself. He had determined not to touch a pencil, not
f his satisfaction; and she was as pleased
Paul's final success. He was a very just man, and h
a reasonable view of your situation; and have s
ften as he consulted Carl, discussed domestic and public business with him, entrusted important e
f looked up to by the "women-folk" as if he were a prime minister. He suggested, and was allowed to carry into effect several important changes in the simple business syst
s, he was in truth no more reconciled to the lot which destiny h
discussing, in his uncle's warehouse, a question which had arisen concerning the matter of running the state highway through the town, or turning it off from one of the outlying roads, he had said laughingly to Jane that he was getting a mild attack of "civic interest"; and then after a moment's thought, he had added more seriously, "But it's true. I've gotten pretty fond of this place. I almost feel as if I belong to it, and it belongs to me. I'd like to make it proud of me some day. It's all very nice and fine to say that you're an independent citizen, and don't hail from anywhere in particular, but you do feel lonely and left-out, and there are lots of things you never can understand. Lots of things," he repeated, with more emphasis. "I've seen dozens of fellows knocking around the world, coming from nowhere in particular, and going nowhere in particular. Some of 'em were pretty clever, I guess-I'd hear 'em talking, sometimes on board ship, sometimes around the tables in the taverns. I used to listen to them-they talked as if they knew a lot, and were usually worked up over something,-Americans, and Italians
ut beyond these elements he knew nothing save what he had gleaned from his rough contact with the world. His ignorance of many things which even the twins had learned, sometimes st
tensive knowledge, which that youth was rather overfond of airing. Every generation of Winklers had seen to it that th
se, and storing away as well as he could the simple things he heard; and many times, he sat up until after midnight, over the ashes of the fire, poring over an
re. He seemed content to bide his time, if necessary, for an indefinite period; and had set
tudying, which he doubled as the spring examinations approached, certainly did not improve either his health or his disposition. Aunt Gertrude was worried about him, and tried to coax him to spend more of his time out of doors, for by the end of March the snow had melted away from the hills, the sun was growing warmer, and the trees already turning green with buds opening in the genial warmth of an early southern spring. He resisted these gentle efforts, however, and even when the long Easter holiday came, settled down to a process of cramming, utterly indifferent to the delicious weather. Even his father had one or two slight difficulties with him, so uncertain was his temper, and the other me
with him was "his confounded swell-head." By this time, Paul had reached the end of his t
suddenly losing his temper altogether, he seized Carl's shoulder fiercely. "I'm sick of your eternal whining, and sna
his grip, and backed toward t
eyes flashing, "and you're a-don't you dare to touch
ut of me-you're pretty sure that I wouldn't hurt a little fellow like you. You're a little cow
hat?" sne
e Paul's big hand clamped down on his shoulder. Carl's face went white, and a
he repeated, in a milder tone. "Will y
e here! Thrash me if you want to! Nothing will
n anger stared into his cousin's pale,
ou tell Uncle Peter about my playing
id not
y you had a lot to do with Uncle Peter's bad opinion of me, and yet-somehow, I don't believe you hate me as much as you think you do. If you had told Uncle Peter about that business with Jeff Roberts he would certainly-not certainl
ilence-which he maintained for a full week-wore on Paul's patience, until more than once he was on the point of declaring his definite intention to put up with it no longer
Jane revelling in the last days of the spring vacation proposed a lon
wanted to stay at home to do some mending while she took charge
e party. But it cannot be said that he was a particularly lively member of it. He looked pale and sulky, walked by himself, and with a moody expression kept his eyes on Jane and Paul as if their high spirits, their perfect camaraderie angered him. And in
us?" suggested Elise, as they
erybody! Nobody ought to stay cooped up indo
r; there did not seem to be much joy in Schubert's beautiful little spring song as she sang it-"And
il
she appeared
u've got to com
are you
may
inute she was with them, swinging her straw hat on her arm. On down the lane th
branches of a tree that, growing inside of the wall around the Sheridan place, extended its patriarchal boughs across t
without me?" he asked in an inj
ne, giving Paul a surreptitiou
in a low tone, remembering bitterly the unhappy part he had been call
essary," returned Jane, calmly,
With the air of one who feels that her small tasks have been well done, she watched Lily and M
ar what they were talking about," but Paul was pained, and u
n the furrows of dark earth, freshly ploughed, young co
ellow, though. How do you think he'd strike you if you were a crow?" Then without waiting for an answer, he went on talking to Lily, describing all his late activities in the line of agriculture, his plans for new buildings o
ood deal of the time?" she asked timidly. "I very
e reason, her words, so simply said, and without the
own-and farming is interesting because-because-" But f
es ache, and he was thoroughly tired out already. Lily was walking arm in arm with Elise, and both were talking to Mr. Sheridan, the twins were running ahead, trying to catch the yellow butterflies that they frightened away from the early fie
come and walk
mn't I?" he returned. Jan
im?" she asked Paul. "Hav
an that I've never given him any cause that I know of. I've been thinking about it a lot lately. I seem to make him downright unhappy-he acts as if I had slipped into his shoes, and I've never taken anything he wanted, have I?" and after a short pause, he added, "And I'm sure that I don't w
ondered Jane. "I could unde
ha
" she said frankly. "I didn't like you then either. I didn't like you for q
," said Paul, laughing, but with a rather sad expre
, quickly, looking
g that I-perhaps I
er day-and what a silly little thing to make so much o
rving, being an ordinary human being. I started to run away the first night I was here-Carl knows that-and I didn't because I was afraid to. He knows that, too. And so I stayed on, planning to make a break as soon as I could. And I hated everything-I was perfectly miserable-until that night, do you remember, when we had that talk by the fire. After that, I began to look at things differently. It seemed to me that I'd been acting like a donkey, and so I decided to do as you said-make the best of things as I found them, and see what would happen. And now-I don't know how it is-but you've all been so good to me, and it makes a difference not to
ply, and presen
t be helped. Only, I haven't any right-I mean, if he's going to be miserable while I'm around, if I get on his nerves every minute-it isn't as if we were little kids, we'll soon be men, and two men quarrelling wi
dom to seem to do so deliberately, and she did not talk to him until the twins started to hunt for violets and jacks-in-the-pulpit, when she began to remind him of the places t
Phil Blackstone and Johnny Everett and Mary and all the rest of them would say to his bucolic pleasures, and grinned at the thought of the expressions they would wear; and he wondered himself at his own enjoyme
r little Janey, inwardly saddened by what Paul had told
was the time to ask him what was the root of his ill-feeling against Paul, now was the time to tel
n, "I want to-" but he s
what's the matter with me. B
quite unde
out?" sh
ry now and then everything gets to jiggling in front of my eyes."
're ill? Let me-oh,
d, impatiently. "I'll get home all right. And don't scare mother to death w
han by his words, obediently slackened her pace.
pper," called Elise, glancing back at
e. Please, Carl, dea
ver me, and talking, and asking questions!" he exclaimed, wit
they were just gaining the road. But Paul, strolling along with his hands in his pockets whi
st until his head stopped throbbing a bi
ully, but the next moment he seemed to guess that something was wrong,
y Carl has a little headache, a
did not waste any time in asking the well-meant questi
better let me h
ere was no hostility
er me, do you hear," he said in a
ey. There's a short cut through thi
ss we'll-try that, Jane." And wi
arm," s
ld, and then obediently ran at full speed to cat
turdy arm, frankly, if silently grateful for its solid support. They said nothing, and Paul, who realized more than Jane had that Carl was seriously ill, wore a grave exp
ow, cousin," he said gently. "Wou
y now only looked at hi
y, and then drawing a long breath, he ad
smi
," and with that, he lifted Carl quite easily in his
hirping of the birds in the budding trees outside his window, the sound of voices in the street below could all be heard distinctly, and yet Aunt Gertrude and Mr. Lambert sat beside his bed, and Janey
n the boy's mind. All its pompousness had fled-it looked old and helpless and humble. And apart as he was, Paul, looking upon their fear and sorrow, felt that he was being welded to his own people. All his