Farewell, My First Love

riend cheated on me with a woman w

cée, became a substit

ll. You pursued me back then, but now it

duced could indeed enhance her certain abilities, s

more frequently and dressing neatly ever

d every night when he came back, there

me, even becoming o

is was definitely n

any years, I could only use the wor

range, there was usua

washing machine, the one I had changed for him after he got drunk the pr

nt of me sent chi

ati

o always seemed so committed and faithfu

for a long time without anyone answering. Sh

despair and grievance were dra

oticed my phone vibr

hy did you call me so

I could occasionally hear the faint sound of running wa

unbosom myself to her. What if

say anything,

Frank is seein

d it, I felt a s

could almost hear Da

kward for a long time

p the phone, and soon appe

head to toe, and only when she saw

. I'm here

race and saw tears wellin

pset than I am abou

ding her a tissue

or being ungrateful. "I'm worried abou

eing too sensitive, then everything would end well. But if

tard! I can't believe I u

eelings for Frank were mo

on the dining table, knowi

ok out the hotdog, trying to tempt

r, she put the hotdog back

n't you

led her e

t eat what he bought. Leave them. I'll take them

what happened, she always stood by my side. Whether it was a matte

rs and are going to have a weddin

s Frank and me, she was the one most su

Maybe I'm ov

t, I still held onto some unrealistic hopes. With the wedding approaching, if it

t of my man being in the s

and she immediately c

ournalist w

in respon

ile urging me

t you to b

house would feel so long, as if everyo

et I still felt so embarras

hat I once thought was a beautiful encou

to college from high school, I still carri

ce compared to others. My parents gave me nothing to bo

s liking to abuse his wife and daughter a

My frail mother, to avoid the conflict reaching her, prete

rying and begging for mercy. But later, I realize

lly ran out of tears. Seeing me neither cry nor s

escape from home, which w

from that small town to the city. Then, in co

I breathed in my fir

nd, pushing with my feet and swinging bac

eks, the scene witness

lly handing me an unopened pack of tissues. He

lis

while I was staring out the window, her eyes full of pai

f this

break up

r swayed continuously in the wind. Even those

he street paved a gold

s au

ng her arm with mine and

lar and headed hom

idn't know if he was on the office sofa or in someone

set, I followed Da

sely at seven when the person we we

think of inviting me? A gla

man wearing a baseball cap. Hearin

a mischievous grin, not not

ng on my face? Or do you

it was when Danna mentio

for a mainstream magazine an

out often, but after I got together with Frank, I drifted

a long ti

long pause, he stammered, "Julissa!" He looked at Danna, who w

l like to dance

shot Danna a glare and hurriedly explained, "I, I was just

me Hank. We're not tha

nna's teasing, so he start

bantering, the

day, " Danna conceded first, earning Hen

nd gave him a meaningful look, a

my best friends. I'll do

im, showing m

lined Danna's invitation to her home.

hink Henrik seems a b

n each other for a long time, and

se. But I can't figure

ake by nightmares. The fear from those dream

to leaning against walls and avoiding all gatherings. I iso

connected from the human world,

ht it was because I hadn't moved far enough from home. However, even after I was adm

each time I reached the clinic's d

up on trying. Perha

ight, mustered the courage, and spo

a pack of tis

o was about to leave, pause. He turned

rig

over rocks, or perhaps it was the sound of my heartbeat. F

unfamiliar and made m

owing the image in my memory. First room, second room, third room..

down. Even the sun had to retreat. People trickled out

llar and waiting for it to stop. The rain, mixed with

oment. The world

ve an umbrella,

me. He held an umbrella, extending his ot

eact, he was alr

mind sharing an

umbrella cl

er how to. A voice inside kept te

I realized how enjoy

ch shorter than usual. Before I knew it, we were near the sports

he glanced at us, her eyes widened i

brella and pulled m

for bringin

re we

d into the rain, leaving Da

er, and even what was in

lissa Hopk

ed that someone r

ates. Just ca

l treat you to

and disappeared d

e showed no sig

ve gone ba

ded my judgment, making me a

ong relationship. No, more precisely, it wa

ollege, I still hadn't returned t

started the Franlis

we got

around the room by Danna

ally sat down, panting. She lay b

sor

darting away as if she lacke

ht Frank and me together in college. She was like a professional m

pinched her cheek,

ing Danna's arm aside, I quietly made my way to the bathroom. Passing

in his hand glowing red in the darkness, and

turned around, extinguishing

" he said, his face showing genuine guilt, thou

athroom, " I said

ay and forgot to ca

kno

some rest.

nd headed straight

distance between us, and even our

him, like a last chapter in a book, bu

pect from this relationship. All I wan

erything seemed as usual,

ul man. When he came home in the evenings, he'd bring things I like

breakfast to feed the stray dogs downstairs

th no news from Henr

project with someone and would be away for a f

inking to myself, "Finally,

th the usual rhythm of life. Finally, on the f

ure P

ter of the city, and Frank's

assed by, I realized

me could stop here. But the green

e Park, where Henrik was waiting

my eyes. His expression was a blend of sad

reen showed no re

t's

drained all my strength. After spe

crossed the park's heart. At the en

t that before I was ready,

hrowing a tantrum while Fra

churned i

e, his expression changed. He quickly

re you

looked like an enraged lioness. Noticing

and only then did I noti

almer than ever, as if today's

issa

re he could say something, He

k's nose, marring his us

d Frank down, each punch a

op

ow come over, but before she cou

you seduce my friend's man! T