The Unexpected Alpha

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ut of bed and put on a pair of faded light blue jeans, a white tee with rainbow-adorned sleeves, and a pair of black V

e kiss on her crown and then proceed to the medic

"Good morning, pumpkin. How did you sleep?" Until they can officially move into th

" I said, taking two tablets at the same time she pr

"my poor baby" when c

her when I checked my phone earlier. Last night, we had a brief text conversation, and it was clear that she wants to be f

le Emilie down the stairs, deciding not to engage in an argument with her at the moment. She spo

lf up a bit. While Gigi continues to cook, my parents, dressed for work, come downstairs. In the aftermath of the meal's compl

ked my sister, "Who was that girl's name that you talked to i

notice a small grin on her face, which suggests

l these sudden and unexpected changes. We enter the school through the parking lot, and as soon as

sa's intense gaze and the fact that she is clutc

ings before giving a sub

ssmates' path; she instantly perked up. As Melissa examines the little bruises on my neck, I turn to face her again.

y motivated to

nstantly transports me back to the incide

tructed me not to tell him I am homosexual," which

iding from me. I did not expect it to turn out this way," she continues, her choi

ay once again and then takes my class schedule, which

gym first, so let us go." I had no idea wher

she is going to cl

ver everything and then have an optional game," and I can not help but roll my eyes because I am curious abou

nly game I play is foreplay," she star

observed that Joey and Cody, who were also in this class, entered and sat down with a group of boys I did

for a while?" said a female

d nine years old; my parents wanted me to be active, but I was never good at sports, so they enrolled me i

" while the others gave me a rather envious look. It was nice to see a familiar face

ay, we are going to go over some basic safety drills and how to use the various

us until it was time to play. They said that everyone could participate except t

a lot-a surprise to me-and Joey, who never once ment

be a very competitive game, and I inquired, "Are

year until he decided to step out during summer prac

discussion over it with Coach Erixon and the girls. Melissa tapped me on the shoulder and gestured

with him by shaking my head at him. "Maybe he

ment as I shook my head in d

g, I will step in. I promise you." As I gazed down at h

room to await my arrival, I crossed my arms. My feelings for him remained strong despite yesterday's events

g, "This is so foolish,"

door slammed behind me, and he opened his lips to speak, but nothing came out. I was about to go when he

was staring off to one side, fidgeting with his

ntion that yesterday

ust nonsense. Just disregard it,"

my frustration built up inside of me. Having to cope with it by a total stranger at a new school was mor

e of the situation by saying, "Yeah, it did not mean anyt

e me the impression that I was finally making it through to him: he had

lacked the self-control to deal w

ng?" while still furious about t

you and yearned for a deeper

mbled, "I thought you were straight." I felt like

he same

unded me, you can not try to justify your actions by claiming you are unsure of your se

had such a strong desire for someone without even talking to them," he said, running

, would

terrified. All my life I have been known as one thing and I believe entirely c

ut, so I cleared it again. "There is no better tim

l with his arms folded. S

d why I am assisting this child. Somehow, I felt an irresistible pull toward hi

at some point, but for now, leave me out of it." I do not know how I would react with

ame of the season on Friday?" His nervousness was palpable a

t informed him. Making the choice to act on your sexuality or come out is not easy; in fact, I know how heavy the weight of the deci

ression a self-assurance I had not noticed in him

nd Melissa as he returns to the game. In order to keep her perplexed expression for a little longer

ails of our conversation, which makes me laugh, s

hold of my arm. Her enormous face makes me laugh. "Right

our thoughts o

prepared to stay by his side and see what happens, but I think he under

lled with questions regarding you and expressed remorse for what had transpired. I have observed his struggles for some tim

n the same place? "So, you are back at home?

, and I can see it in her expression. "No, Joey and Cody are actu

e has just said. "So you do not think this is just some straigh

are different from his other relationships. He has genuine feelings f

cooperation. If that is th

us focus on getting ready for the routine later on today." She st

or us. As they perspire heavily, they wear sports shirts and shorts. Joey threw his hair in a

ractice, Cody spoke to his love

where I am. As we make our way out the rear door and into the parking lot, Joey follows after me. After a t

today in the locker room. I pause to clear my throat, then raise my eyes to see

find the right words to describe it; several of the girls became disoriented midway

ou; you were the one to take the lead," Melissa rem

o not think he really grasped my level of dancing skill, wh

ts" and "good work, dude," he offers me a high five, and Jo

ar embrace as we near her car. "Are w

d goodbye to Melissa, but he followed me to the car neve

back, Joey says, "You have a great automobile." I

y 16th birthday two years ago," I return to the fro

d self-assurance to overcome this and do what I believe is right. I believe you are aware of how difficult it is and that y

o find the right time to do it. I think you are ready to move forward, but maybe not to come

tells me. Similar to the first day, I notice tension in his shoulders; this makes me think I may have s

o put his arm over my shoulder, igniting a s

ed that you made it so simple. I was afraid you would hate me for what I d

t did it to show your superiority, then sure, I definite

all practice. But I will see you tomorrow, okay?" he assur

since I assumed he was simply strolling with Cody outside, but

ou to be the annoying third wheel with the lovebir

ou if you claim you wanted to see

vous grin. "Alright, I

ts me on the back of the head, and we resume our

n and know that what I am about to do is completely out of char

re no one will be able to see us. He looks at me bewildered before he follows me to the area behind my car; standing there with him makes my

er, which amplifies the sparks I felt before like fireworks went off. While he places hi

rom him. His gaze fixed on me, and I saw that he was biting his lip. His eyes have take

s body and clear my throat. I appreciate

just gone. His gentle kiss on my forehead as his hand returns to my

t what I did. He was making progress in discovering his sexuality, and I might have ruined everything if it had gon