After My Death, The Actor's Regret

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taining a relationship with a young

his secret, he didn't offer any excuse

he reminds me of you

him across

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know that I was i

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k into the chat interfac

ago, when we had an argument and I deleted him.

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is phone back, my hand

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ed one after another, a cute anime girl's avatar appeared in f

entally tapped several time

irthday today, and

ot talking to

es, followed by a selfie of

cious. Thanks, Cl

roar echoed

with me for nine yea

that I could confirm

nt to the balcony and lit a cigarette in sile

ught wasn't about how b

mmented, "She

the girl. In terms of the density of their chats, the girl was extrem

the sky's scenery and a picture of h

le to accept many things, including the f

took a deep drag on the cigarette

one, I could oddly imagine Clayton, who w

I had a rule, if we could call, we wouldn't text

ne send

te burned out, but a sudden st

y birthday date coul

thday and the girl's birt

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d demanded to know why their partners had browsed their p

ip had been rotten for so long th

ly, "You chea

vely, "I have nev

ould I give you a

d said, "Eva, can'

ng better get it straight. You're the one who

up the lighter I had used on the coff

ut physical at

of you when you

yet he could still say something like he

I thought his mind was more depraved

was a lack of courage to face losing you, so they were

g with the girl, he had made a sign

pated this outcome

is composure, because he had al

he had never slept with her,

still here, you know. What the hell are you d

osture of being slapped, with the emo

"Let's b

nged with frustration, "Do we r

, "Do you remember the promises we made t

time you've c

ly, and he stumbled back a st

have recalled the promises we made to e