Tainted by the Badboy

G

ssage I got after seven months of wh

know well who sent me this message. It is Ino. I still have a

ere he finds a face t

ce? After I called him so many times? After

n't need that kind of man in my life anymore. My therapist, Dominic, told me in one of our session

d and Ino is selfish enough to see

and my longing.

He is saying words that I reall

ke Nursing in NYU in exchange of me living alone in a simple apartment complex near the University. While Olive and her

. And I am sure that she's happy to see that I a

month

hospital's visit that became often t

own. Community standards saved me and my ass since I am only eighteen. I am thankful t

some of their friends, Mina, Kevin, Jin and Shirley. But

y with my friends. "Hey, Agnes, are you up to the party tonight?"

or me to say yes. I didn't come to

h, Mom will com

s too bad. We want you there."

e to have

ded and conti

Tell me." Ol

hake my head no

re you still afraid that s

se partly, it is true

t is not even

think

raight at me

nk you." I was on my way home when

llow, Sol or Olive trying

umber that has been pestering

back in that black

ake, I close my eyes an

ealized I do not want to be alone for the moment. I decided to hop off

lone, not that

st, I've been having problems for months. I'm not afraid of him, I'm afraid of myself. What if I

ng at me but then was stunned "I am sorry, I

peak because this man infront of me is l

yes, a plungy lips, he's just so gorgeous and c

with my gaze when the bartender g

ng on myself alone again when

don't

n try to focus myself a

he first time I felt this way with stranger after that spring night, after him. "I didn't quit

tell, he's the

one li

at looks so fragile, someone that loo

cassanov

sway girls or wom

to me, to

k my beer "I am far

I am cur

m he's already

ly. I am far from innocent. Se

stranger, but this isn't the first time I hooked up with

nt girl just because of the way I dress and th

hard when I see his dee brown

y know me."

yes with something so beautiful. I guess

ith me?" We went to the side of the bar, I am leaning on the wall facing

don't

my head n

s your

refer not to t

wide. "You surpr

did well." I sigh

ddenly walk closer to me and cag

ing at each othe

and our lips wi

s or M

n't want you to become

humor and I smile

e started driving. He is just five blocks away from mine and I am glad I won't have any trouble going home after. H

this expensive car, and the way he look

ile "Does that

uldn't give him

t the first floor is his work station. I don't want to press details about him.

when he locked the door and backed me on it

t that has been illuminating is the moon from above. Yes, he doesn't have a

No

inish, I kissed him

re fast all o

uch is dangerous, and the way my body synchronized his every move is a warning. I did like the se

are you

en bothering to looked at him, because

toning my shirt, barely loo

e are dif

d smiled sad

" He ask when I was ab

eath "--No, I don't think so." Then leave. A

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