Just Another Fling

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ed to go meet him, but didn't have the guts to. I was too scared to talk. I was not even able to justify what I was feeling, how am I am going to express myself in front of him. He woul

he? Anger built inside of me. I clenched my fists in anger, I started walking towards him in anger and frustration. No one can't touch him. You don't have the right to touch my Andrew.

t do I have a type? I never judged anyone, I fucked whosoever I f

g in the direction, An

he said while touching my c

st it?" I said

eye catching, so thought--"

ck my way." I said with zero percent interest in

They already left. I was feeling so irritated

nd of guilt for what I did to him? Seeing Beck say have you fallen for someone, took me in great shock. I was so confused and cou

, or else you won't be like this. Maybe you've fall

I am not going to feel anything for him. And I would never look at him. But

I really hated the feeling, bu

like guilt, anger, frustration in me. I thought I would never care for

ss of alcohol, then another, didn't feel a thing. I kept the pace and drank almost a bottle. The bartender asked if I was okay, but I was too wasted to reply. This was not enough. I needed more. I

r today!" A boy, shiny eyes, somew

said drinkin

day doesn't mean you have to

ay. I don't want people chasing me.

ing serious relations

ke.... relationship? Huh... shut up." I said not beli

ng. Like an idiot

re what?

one who's inte

drinking like it's his last d

ook cute and

im in awe. Is he calling me

ying to steal a kiss. I turned my head t

ted kissing him on the neck. His hands where exploring my back and shoulders. Wh

d to go." I said looking down her

od up moving few steps back, but couldn't wa

and struggling to do so. He gave me a confused look. I didn't

airs. I heard footsteps and stood up hiding near the fence. It was his mom I guess. She was going somewher

ut not completely, still wasted but could walk a little bit. I didn't knew what to do next. So I climbed upwards, using wha

Because if I'm not drunk I could never talk to him. I knocked on his window, like a gent

said trying my be

He was shocked seeing me here I gu

actually...

ll like Al

e bit. But not that mu

ll like 12 bott

Ent

go a

nna t

. Get lo

nce and was about to fall when he held my ha

towards a chair in the corner,

hell out of my house." he said and crosse

to find words. And avoid looking him

with people right? Doing whatever you feel like with them. Get out if you

d up, slowly walking towards him.

" he wasn't even letting me come near

y Andrew.

l, it's not something you should be sorry about. Just go and di

ou'll never have to see me again." He was

seemed least interested in

I-" I somehow managed to muster

ou tried to rape me." He screamed and then sudde

g from guilt, the frustration when I saw you leave with that guy, the disgust I saw in your eyes for me. All this is killing me. I gave into my demons. Didn't think before doing horrible things. I'm so sorry. I don't know w

two steps apart. Tears rolled down my eyes. I was crying. One thing I never did for someone

ack, I held him in my hands, he was resisting but soon stopped. I gripped my hands on h

entence. I know forgiving me is hard. Maybe impossible for you, but please don't look at me with

applying what I had just said of not touching him.

as I was wrong and bad for him. I did horrible things to him, and still there he is not even cursing me, beating me or doing anything. Some part of me really hated it, because I wanted him to beat the shit out of me. But he didn't give me tha

immediately, looking on th

r have to see me again." I

r but you can stay the night here. It's too late for you to

I turned back on

blame myself for letting you go out with this state of yours. So just stay, l

ause my life is hell already. Good night Andrew." I smiled in pain, my heart was aching, I didn't want to leave, but I can't stay. I tried to give him, 'I'm fine on my own' lo

and never wanted to let go. My eyes were closed, probably his too we were standing there saying nothing, I took a long breath inhaling his scent for the last time. I

ant him to see me as a crying bitch. I left his room wiping my tears looking down, forgot I had to t

ding near me. I tried to open my eyes, which took some time to adjust to the lightening. He was there

ost funniest drunk I've ever seen.