To have or to hold

d my friend have done this to me? The little tart. I hated her, and I could fee

d to me that they loved each other outside of the church, and in front of all our frien

there and smirked as we said our vows to each other, knowing what she ha

n for that. The betrayal hurt like hell, but a stubborn side to me was not letting

e best idea wasn't to run away, because here I couldn't do anything about the situation. Yet what was I planning on doing? Dragging the pair of them off each other? Yuck. I n

long it would take my heart to heal. A part of me never wanted to have to heal, and wanted to get over it straight away to

I did need to get out for a little while, stretch

y surroundings as a form of therapy. Making my way to the reception area, I wasn't sure about needing a walk; I could've done wit

gated my way through the back of the hotel through the French doors and was met by the sight

aces. The grounds were stunning, and arranged around the pool were some sun loungers, so quietly walki

as sat with me, cradling me in my thoughts of being in a state of bliss. The air was coconut

over a part of the translucent sky, this was

came the deep v

oodstream. So much for bloody relaxation! There, a couple of loungers aw

doing here?" I asked, feeling

make you jump. I didn

mean

" I half-panted, catching my breath and

" he protested, slowly sitti

p where he was, and I couldn't help but watch the flex

g up straight and realising how expos

an almost uncomfortable way. I felt naked under his stare, and I wondered whether that was my intense paranoia of him being a po

, standing up and gestur

" he spoke, stan

ed, wondering whether if I r

spoke, with a chuck

cern me. Unless h

est," I replied, edgin

d I wondered what was coming next. It seemed my trust

ed, rather than asked, as he stopped in f

s I wanted to run away and use my better judgement, I was glued to the presence of him. He was ev

hink of any excuse to get away from

asked, playfully

drink, and then I'll h

ddy. Let's go and get you

s only being nice to me, because he called me his "cabin bu

seemed to be inflicting upon me. With a luxuriously calm feel to the atmosphere, with crysta

to drink, and I decided to opt for a glass of dry white wine, while he ordered himself a lager. It was actually nice to be sat with some