Trials of Heart

the bottle of liquor. My attention is on the band performing in front of

an find peace and where pain can

ere the fuc

sly mad at me again. I'm used to it. It's good that I can't hear her voice clearly as the loud

ed, yelling on the phone as the loud music invaded my ear. Sh

lways contact whenever I'm good or lost. I feel like I need to talk to her. I just want s

eply, I received nothing. Maybe she's already sleeping at this

radually exiting the bar. I and the rest of the performers were still ins

t drive myself alone. I guess it would be better to stay here inside the car

g me and to be honest, I don't like it. I had no choice but to spend the night inside my car. Alone. And random thoughts lingered insid

are starting to open. People at this early morning have their job while I have no plans to move in my position. It was as if I wanted to stick myself here inside. My days keep on repeating and only the morning wakes me up in

However, I couldn't recognize her. Maybe it was th

a cup of coffee and bread. I noticed that she

out I was here?" I

y. Her lips curved a smile, laughing at m

as she always knows my destination re

offee she brought. I admitted I'm c

take these." She offered. I took t

just in the morning." She gave me an apologetic rema

des I enjoyed hanging out alone,"

e had bought for me. She saved me from starving. She also asked me wh

she didn't ask for anything els

e, Lou?" I asked. I had

" she said in delight. I no

es, and instruments that were scattered on the floor. I was too drowsy, tired, and dizzy. I slept for too long and hadn't noticed the time ticking at 3 in the afternoon. I get

mediately covered the towel off my half body, hurrying to walk close to the door. As I opened it, Xymon in his busines

o, Mon?" I asked h

n Wednesday." He asked back, leaning his arm on the sofa. I was

e a newborn."

What's that?" I impatiently asked h

e party. " I shifted my reaction in surprise. I'm not sure if she wants my presence, aft

nswered, defini

d. "Anyway, you can bring your f

ompatible with each other as if he wasn't aware mom dislikes me since then. A simple dislike became hatred when my father died and accused me that it was my

tantly and walked to where I had parked my car. I received a messag

uld. I didn't notice an old lady was passing by on the street. I instantl