Insane Desire
y's
n, we have a sort of silent...talk. He k
pills as me. But here Tendon is, sitting in front of
prescriptions added to your list, after the d
ink they're jus
Swallowing them is the most obvious thing that pops into my head, but of cou
ert my gaze from him and look around at the doctors surroundi
look for, you can see their flickering eyes wandering around the
for an
almost
p, a questioning look in his eyes. I make a shoving motion w
tle, we count
r pills off of the table. The cups go clattering
ediately drawn to us, and t
own and shove the pi
e that's goi
up the stairs to my-our- room. The minute we get
I close my eyes and pu
he is fo
s not
really
ays, slightly out of breath
hear him coming closer, but I wave h
y head and he see
che?"
the bedsprings as
" He says, and
mart, I'll g
don gets up and starts pacing. Lifting my
frazzled to
ments are ma
ow and throw it at him, hit
We have a stare down for a few seconds and then his
and runs a hand
nd gradually let myself fall asleep. Hopefu
*....
ash
gotta ge
t of me, he's looking at me
wouldn't blame him, because of my appearance. I know
p off of the bus, standing on the s
ome on." A woman calls my nam
the people f
nd starts pulling me in some direction. As much as
her brisk pace, I don't
s a hospital. Immediately, I freeze,
nd I follow unwillingly. She practica
iting room, a nurse rushes
ed in blood-" the lady starts telling the nurse what she sa
restrained shock. I guess it's not every day
their proble
. It's ok." The nurse takes my hand from
urs?" She asks, and when I
k door, and Anna pushes it
psychologist's o
of pills, appointments
ke, breath
hback
asks, and I can hear the e
k over at him, a
So, I start holding my breath to calm my heart d
it's ok. Nothing's going to happen, I'm here, it's ok." He soothes, and I can see
my surprise, it actually helps. My heart is sti
w. Nightmare I suppose?"
airs... you're
back until my back is touching the wa
going to get food
thought
but eventually Tedon is back in
e dumps all of the food out. I look at it all,
ng the truth. But still, I watch as he eats an apple, and when
my bed, and then
don puts the food back in the bag, and then hides it
s that the people gave me. Heading out of the room, I go down th
......
into the hall. Instead of going back to my room, I walk
stairs and
hallway up here, is that it isn't just
nt rooms. The doctors don't know about it because the lights
alking about how they've heard ghos
's only the wind coming thr
ws aren't all there. The glass has been broken during storms an
ndows, even though there are bars block
s long as I'm able to at leas
from one of the windows, I sink down to the gr
hey gave me over my head, I look
the rain outside, and the wi
h, I hear
d to run, I wait for whoeve
light darkness, and takes
sn't bother to say anything,
lean my head back against the wall and close my eyes
h, because eventually Tedon is
get sick. Come on, get up." I can feel his breath on m
t a little
es shoot wide open. Biting my lip, I move into a kneeling pos
the hallway towards our cell. As soon as we step in, the doo
d fuc
y elbows, so I'm staring at the wall. Suddenly, Tedon's face
anything...I was just wondering what you were st
d you
nd moves back to his bed. I flip over and turn on my
of obvious. He was lying down, with his arms under hi
me staring, he tensed up everywh
over and pull the blanket up over me. I hear him rustling aro
tops, and I start drifting off. I f
For some reason they don't open the doors unless both of us are awake at the sa
es up, and lies t
. As soon as he sits up, the door opens and I walk out into the
to look at him. With a 'what
cheeks get a little red. I smirk and turn
sort of war, doesn't mean that I won't
drugged
ough the cafeteria, to the door to the kitchen. I burst in, surprising a f
uck themselves. I'
the cafeteria. We go to our usual table and sit down. He sits across fr
ase..." he
de him...ahem...hard, but that's oka
s and I look up at him and roll m
to happen. It just...did..." He doesn't look at
nts he starts ea
war
d he stays on the opposite side of the hallway from
m on the other. He's staring down a
silently sigh, and look towards the door. Eventually he lo
s narrow, but I go in firs
sits on his, fac
going to be lik
t one of the small books I stole from one of my psychiatrist's offices. Lyin
*
out of my reverie and I look over a
you Lucy?" I nod just
y Lu
gain for a while, until
to get out of this place. There's som
eaves it
he's
ly patients do agains
mn lot, th