Rebecca's Diary

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uickly, as if I would have been surprised or judgmental if they

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k. At least it

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drugs. We can go to jail if we give you alcohol, or your mother smells it on your breath, and we could lose our house if we have d

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but the die was cast. I gave the same w

sse was out of town. "So how is it going with Ethan?" I asked. "Are you two

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shoes, "It... squirts," s

ons. I was a teenager too, once," remembering what happened at a much earlier age to me, a

yet, ... but if it ever comes to that, I want you to know these are here. I had to have an abortion when I was your age, and I still lie a

stmore, I'm

It remained unopened, though that didn't prove anything. And sometimes, when Jesse drov

ions," I reported to him, ed

e for a man, and like when was my fi

likes it a lot." Jesse grabbed me and started tearing off my clothes. Finger fucking was just the start of our frol

nderful," as his th

her. I was still breast feeding my Charlotte and let her suckle for a good half hour. I'm not sure who liked that more, me or her. I'm one of those l

th

more! Is, uh,

cancel. Didn't

missed call and a voice mail. "Oh. So

"Would you like a pepsi or something?"

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a coke and a glass of wine for me. "

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sipping our drinks. "Can I

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