THE DAZZLING SHADES OF WHITE- A Love Story

ook. I slightly flinched and slowly opened my eyes.

take her body to prepare it for the funeral." he said and tried to take my ba

his knuckles beside me. "But the hospital needs to tak

ou need to change, eat and rest

y life is suffering right now?" I said dryly and closed my eyes. "Just leave me be. I just want to be wit

her small being. I tried to open her little hand with my index finger but her fist wouldn't open. It hurt me so much to see that

ke Sophia's to me-but th

t watch; it was six

s welled up as I removed a small portion of her head cap and I

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nges-I then realized that my hands, the right side of my face and most of my white shirt under my black coat

wrong S

eflection while my eyes stared blankly. I though

e? Didn't you always wa

cused

er; you brought t

y bring thi

ly live with

doesn't remember you? Will you happy? Because you know that

hadi

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tney touched

y strength and got to my feet. The male members of the Atish household were

er's corpse, which was covered in a white cloth, to the bare ground so deep in the earth; when I got out, I took a shovel a

ste the joys of fatherh

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he

d; my eye lashes wiped aga

he

my head was aching so hard that I felt it mi

me. I looked around myself and couldn't find even a

e. I rolled my eyes, my head was already throbbing and hi consistent nagging wasn't helping either. I leaned on my knee

id and slapped my face sl

ed me into the shower chamber and started the cold shower on me. My sen

d kicked the door of

d and took off my shirt. "Hav

hissed and threw the

nd!" he said loudly. I narrowed my eyes and

asked and took a dry

t and you haven't visited the hospital or the office." He said. I wore a

ven listen

xclaimed in

ing yourself in alcohol and just accept what has happened. Huria is dead and your wife is in a

now but she needs you more than ever right now." He gushed. "Now is no

u?" I

me?" he

sly and glared at him. "You have no fuck

I know

el!" I shouted. "So don't say that you do." I clenched my j

much? It wasn't like this the firs

genuine love that was feeling? Was this love t

." I said in a low voice and feel on my

ight." He said and patted my shoulder. "I'm here for y

was incapable of th

ay to the hospital. They had shifted

room, she looked the same. My heart almost ski

de. I sat on the chair that was next to her side and carefully took her h

d as the tears flowed and I just coul

ed so

n I was all alone in the cold streets of

y heart for good. I wanted to protect myself from ever getting hurt again. I thought that I would be just fine living like a cold calculating machine and fixed my mind on my main goals

hat way-no emotion ruled me for so long. My walls became stronger with every passing day and the darknes

face with which she masked her modesty

to not fall fr y

fered my heart to you in a silve

whom I care about always e

precious daughter and are you next? Kha

towards me? And who w

r everything that has

would you make me suffer; first you take away my ch

this then I can never make

t Khadija

I stated and scoffed sarcastically. "But why should i? why should I even ask t

ah. I quit." I said and let go

ut I want yu to know that what I am about to do is the most certain way to secur

paused and cupped her face in my hands and bro

at way; you can forget everything and start afresh. Go

dly as I climbed the stai

d with so many emotions-love, hate, sorrow,

to the railing and stared down. Th

hat all of a sudden, I stopped

ally sure

he back of m

t for a personal one in which I had probably spent

that offered me nothing but torment and

hat she would be happy? Who would be there to support her? who would be there to offer her help becaus

n save me

o all your problem? Did think even for one second how this could affect Khadijah? No you didn't because you are a fucking coward. Instead of facing your problems, you're running away again. Didn't you always pride yourself

old winds urged me. It was almost that I just wanted someone to push me so that

die so badly?

e railing more tightly

raid but at least, from tonight onwards

kbar, All

gasped as I almos

illa Allah, Ash-hadu an-

it meant but, it sounded so familiar; like it was something that my soul knew and wanted it for so long and now

-rasul ullah, Ash-hadu an

-salat, Hayya

-falah, Hayya

kbar, All

-Allah, laa ila

life, I felt, at peace; I got the peace that I had been searching for all this time. It

s this not the peace that you feel ri

o hear that song again. Where di

had come from. I must listen to it again; maybe, it can give me the answers

D COMME

USE YOU WILL FIND OUT SOON ENOUG