A Butterfly on the Wheel
She turned the oblong handle which released two of the windo
ow pure, and how different from the ho
she did, indeed, seem to be bathed by a sweet and delicate refreshment, a cleansing, reviving air, wh
now, late as it was, innumerable lights twinkled over Paris, and a big honey-coloured moon, which shamed the fire
n it and with an impulsive gesture stretched out her arms to where the Lamp of the night,
am going to be good! I really, really am. I am
hard, metallic, and insis
one bell w
, as it were, she put down her good resolutions on t
one, caught the receiver to he
is it? Oh! Where are you? Chalo
ire, but behind her and in the ro
ly and turned round
e. His hair was dark and curly and grew low upon his forehead; his eyebrows were beautifully pencilled; and below them two shrewd, mocking, and yet somehow simple and merry
e speak, Peggy?"
mbarrassment. Then without a further word she fluttered towards the door of her bedroom, dropp
e of quick, decisive steps to the
per. What? What? 2.34 to-night-I mean this morning?
standing by her bedroom door. "T
the gir
p the receiver again and pressed it to hi
us at Chalons? What? You have decided not
rest, and turned the handle to ring off. Then he loo
is vexed,
most alluring pink, h
ve the room
he said. "I heard the telephone rin
of the room, the door not far from that which led into the cor
e hotel was full-it was the only
hing else also-something very difficult to define. "Wait," she said. "That doo
ve the somewhat tragic note of Mrs. Admaston's voice into nothing-to mak
when I heard you at the telephone. I thought you would not mind. Besides, I wanted to know what E
different," she said; "we are in a strange hotel-by
a little, and answered
ourse; surely yo
I thought; but I feel
, it was the most reassuring and
ther alarming,"
epped up towards her. "But rather nic
ing in his voice and smile that Mrs. Adm
little switch-board and putting out the big central lig
een laid. She was obviously tremendously amused, but she made a great effo
most ordinary occasion. He strolled lazily over to the fireplace, took
nyone know
ed alarmed
light a cigarette. It is
out a cloud of smoke, to cross over
st one cigarette. Just one, in front of the fir
ette, but only o
a low, quiet voice; and then, raising his head, he
e excitement of this odd meeting, got the better of her prudence. She came to t
r face was tantalisingly close to his, and she noticed, well enough, that his hand was trembling a
o shake also. "Now, Peggy,
ggy a litt
froid, still shook like a leaf in the wind, he lit the cig
ke your shape a
that shrewd an
obin Goo
y, which seemed to remove all diffidence from Co
head of the sofa. "Oh, Puck was
?" he
en she bent towards him, swinging her little brown-shoed foot.
ous little demons I ever
regist
porter at Charing Cross forgot
f luck, wasn't
was gazing at the end of his cigarette and not looking
then suddenly she stopped, and C
ontinued, "what the
"She can jolly well
ut I'll bet she's put some rotten idea into Ellerdi
strained. The lips assumed an appearance of somewhat exaggerated
ke Lady Attwi
plied. "Where does sh
girl did not notice it. "I don't
g?" Peggy asked, with
s she any?" Col
hasn't, how do
wits,
t go in for wits,
is the diplomatic fa
l wind that blows nobody good. Th
he said, "she's the only po
d to keep anything. Can he be i
ffed slowly at
if a man loves a woman he doesn't leave a comfortable hotel to travel all night in a slow train
attractive cat
ws about her," Collingwoo
hy did
ou-for no ot
," Peggy said. "Do you? I
rom the sofa. "Now, sto
yes glowed more strongly. "She's a
ng down again upon the couch and tapping impatiently with his foot upon the car
then she leant down towards Collingwood. "What so
ld have noticed that tiny beads of perspiration
"you are a tantal
bsolutely happy. "I suppose I ought
f deep yearning, and the note of passion restrained till
force and power. "Why not, Peggy? I love you when you
owards the door of her bedroom. "What about that cigarette?" she
passion, and, having done so, wom
en't finished it yet. But listen
o-night, Colling; you promised," sh
gy; I love you s
ing, don't ta
ough it lost nothing of its power. "I
at her tea-gown and shrank
love," she said
she shrank away, not this time into the sure
th feeling. "Why not? It is in the air-the very night is charged with
g; you frighte
monotonous and dull your life must be. Good God! don't I know it? Am I not always thinking of it? Poor little Butterfly! What a
ulous with fear. "Please go, Colling! It isn't fair. I am afraid.
" he said. "I want you so badly-want you for my own-to-night-to-morrow, all the nights and all the days. I have been very good. I have alwa
udden, gliding step, and pl
my friend, my very de
he cried, co
ly that
t he caught her in his arms, straining her to him wildly, showering kisses upon the shining coronet of her hair. "We're alone, Peggy," he cried,
ace pale as linen, her voice wit
ing. Do help me, Colling! I don't love you like
lute sincerity, mingled with fear, that he
face changed and melt
ried. "You wou
fa and sat down upon it, burying his face in
whisper to himself; "s
e end of the sofa, aghast at what she had d
you too well to let you do anything that would spoil our happiness. I am not unkind-r
tterly, without looki
ut the girl to the heart. She went round from the back of the sofa and knelt at
what else can
ment his voice did not soften. Ther
ave left London with me if we had only been friends and nothing more. Were we only friends when we used to sit up together night after night a
mustn't say
kneeling upon the floor, and pas
the risks that we have run? For God's sake, here and now let us be honest with each other. Why, w
ver. "Colling! oh, Colling!" she said in a pit
y too glad to think. You know well
ng realisation. She clasped both hands to her breast, and the light shon
she
up to he
u don't ca
she gasped. "Tell me, d
thinking it? Haven't we
hat! We have only been very fond frie
n her voice. She kept clasp
think ungenerous things of others. I have been too trusting-too confiding. Wh
anities-your yearning for devotion, for adulation, for sense of power. I know! You wanted all the joys and none of the risks. That sums up the whole thing in a nutshell. There are lots of women like you. They drive me
like a whip. She stared at him in helpless amazement and misery. He had paused in his
mean you to be mine. There will be a crash soon-that is certain. Admaston will take notice of what everybody is sa
at have I done!
ou exist. His heart beats by Act of Parliament. He'd a thousand times rather address a villag
ike, but say nothing against him. You do not know my husband. We are n
said, with a curious note of perplexity in his voice. The
know. I have had no chance to lov
on his heels and swung back again. "I see," he said; "you
hink I am neglected. That is absurd. It was my father's wish that we should marry.
hat she was trying to persuade herself that her
not even Admaston-can stand ridicule for long. Remember, I
to speak
ociety and make you a very proud and ambitious man. Don't shake your head-that's only because you want to be gallant. He
ut position," he
who have some big purpose in life
rst time there came a glint of malicious and real ill-humour ove
is a fighter, Colling. I think many women would
ething-or someone-to fight for. My nature must be baffled. There must be obstacles in the way for me. I have a wick
e long since, but now almost all expression went from it also fo
was being cruel only to be kind. She must face the situation once and for all, and then perhaps everything might be right. The situation, serious as it was, was very largely of his own creation. Seeing no other way, he had deliberately endeavoured to compromise Mr
ignities and all the shame of a process in the courts. In his overmastering desire, her reputation, her hon
and the university have given them a certain code. They must pay their gambling debts, they must do various other things of that sort; b
eggy, driving
when she had recovered a little. "Really, really, you are mistaken. I am quite satisfie
he had deliberately done her best to be provocative. Her intentions, doubtless, were innocent enough as far as any dishonour to her husband entered into the question. But her love of adulation, her vanity, her d
ve deceived
t say that. I
loved you, and ever since then you have let me go here and th
good. You have never been u
r less evidence than we have furnished. And all the while you have acc
what do
about us. Mean? I mean that the call of love is in the spring, Peggy, whispering to you and me. Mean? I mean
d caught her up in
u, Colling! Let
our fault as well as mine! Kiss me, Peggy!
! His face blazed. There
for a moment almost passive in his arms after her first fight and struggle, a loud, s
ne!" Peg
g," Collingw
clasped together, and once more th
y cried; "answ
ght round her. Before he had been straining her to him pass
the bell
Collingwood stepped up to the
aid. "Who is it? W
f all ordinary qualities s
and!" sa
gesture with his left hand,
wrong train. Yes, Collingwo
the telephone. Again he motioned her to silence, givin
an't hear you distinctly. You want to speak to E
table and ran up to Peggy, who w
," Collingwood said in a low, fierce wh
his way and that as if about to fall
ing," he said; "
he? London
" he replied.
rdine has just gone out. Hello! Where are you s
d strained as a greyhound on the leash; then
oking at her almost stupidly, as
ime. At last he spoke. "I didn't think
?" she almo
llo
head, thinking deeply. Then he looked up at Peggy. "Peggy," he said at
ng off a blow. "Go, go!" she cried; "please go! I sh
u now, Peggy. I j
id," she said, and move
said, in a voice instinct with agonised pleadin
d firmly, and stre
anything in the world-better than myself.
r!" sh
u-to have you for my own. You know it is true. Peggy, before God, I bel
r hand and press
" she said in a d
er for him as far as she was concerned. Undisciplined as his nature was, baffled and disowned as he felt, he nevert
will come right. Good night." With one last lingering look at
ost over-mastered by her rising h
her eyes closed, when the corridor door op
e!" sh
one great s
u have not g
so anxious about yo
rl cried; "there is a pain like t
over the young girl's form with loving, frightened caresses. "Poor darling! There is somethi
hat d
ne; I saw him looking at your boxes. Then just after
eel that something dreadful is going to happen. Stay with me-don't go back to your