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carts passing past, gentle voices keeping the night tranquil. This locati

. My heart is beating steadily now, but it feels

tly when day

, gentle sunlight. For a second, I almost forgot where I was. T

nocks on

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en it opens. More old. Calm.

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me sitting up. "Is thi

d then I say, "

today because he has a clean shirt and roll

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tare at him. "Y

his head.

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h honesty, so I drink the tea. I

something stronger," I say. Anger.

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at's how it was for me

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can tell that he is

are you afrai

up. "That you might not choose

e between us, w

a fear," I add. Tha

sses his lips. "It

ress, and being patient. I answer inquiries. Adrian doesn't

rent when we're alon

move you to a private room." L

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re are hallways that go by. Doors open and shut. The new space doesn't feel like a

wn next to the bed. I w

He says, "Your things. Clo

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break. I flip it over with my hands. It l

t to look

or a while. "That depends

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ems h

dow while Adrian stands close. The world goes on outsid

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says. "Fear.

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gets softer. Shadows get lon

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still stay if I

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in my ches

in after he departs. I

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e and look up,

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