The Pride English Version of Tentang Harga Diri

I gripped the sink tightly as I throw up in the sunshine of a beautiful morning. I didn't know what was happening to me... this happen weeks ago and I can't even know what was happening to me.

I thought it's just a simple expired food but it's happening weeks ago. It made me confuse so much.

I quickly washed my face and brushed my teeth because I was vomiting. I don't know what is happening to me or what is wrong with me.

I also feel tired and almost don't want to eat the other food that was served to me by those twins. I wanted to work but because of my vomiting I worried the twins so they didn't want me to work.

I left the bathroom and went to the kitchen, seeing the twins in the kitchen, who were talking to each others seriously.

"O, good morning, bro! How's your sleep?" Linux asked me when I would sit on one of the chairs in front of him.

"Good morning..." I groaned painfully when I held my temple because it was aching so much.

"Good morning, Hell," Luxian greet me nonchalantly and he's busy cooking food so I simply nod at him.

They are my bestfriend since elementary and they become so successful at the young age of them but me... I got kicked out by my own house and take every wealth I have.

I suddenly stand up and went to the sink when I smelled a horrendous smell coming somewhere. Linux went behind me to tap my back.

"What the fuck? Are you sick, Hell? You're vomiting these past few weeks in the morning," Linux said while tapping my back.

I feel dizzy by vomiting so much, closing my eyes and holding the sink hardly. Luxian went to me, holding the spatula that he's using in cooking.

"That's right. Maybe, you're not eating well, Hell," Luxian said while looking at me in worry. His eyes is full of those.

I push Luxian away from me when I smelled the bad smell coming from the spatula. I quickly vomit and I feel like I vomit everything.

"Why does the food you're cooking smells so bad?" I irritatedly asked, making them both confuse in my own actions. They both tilted their heads in confusion.

"Excuse me, the Menudo smells so good!" Linux said and even taste the Menudo in front of me while Luxian hit him in the back of his head.

"No... the smell is not even good. I don't like that for breakfast," I irritatedly  said while holding my nose so I won't smell it.

Linux looks at me, deadpanned. "So, what do you want to eat, our King?" he asked but Luxian continuesly look at me as if he is studying me.

Linux get me some water so I quickly drink it, thinking what food should I eat. I want to eat Avocado with mayonnaise for this morning.

"Can I have mash Avocado with Mayonnaise right now?" I asked and they both looked at me weirdly, like they are shock with what I said but that food is making me crave. I bet it taste good.

The silence took the whole Kitchen.

"What?" I looked at them both deadpanned and went back to my chair.

"You said yesterday that you want Menudo for morning." Luxian crossed his arms and turn off the gasule. "But now you want that kind of weird food? What are you... a scientist?"

I closed my eyes getting irritated even more. I'm hungry! Why do they not give what I want to eat?!

"Can I have that food... please?" I begged while looking at them. They looked so shocked when I said that.

"So, you know how to say please?" Linux said while laughing, he was looking at me while laughing and Luxian hit him again.

"Go, make him the food he wants." He glared at Linux. "Maybe you know how to slice an Avocado and put a mayonnaise on it?" Luxian sarcastically asked and went to the Airpot.

When Linux is done making the food I want, he handed them over me. While Luxian gives me milk that I quickly accept.

I start eating but the twins eyes never left to me. Luxian looks like he's studying me while Linux is eating Menudo in far away. They have to balance what they eat because they are Model.

Luxian is holding a cup of coffee while sipping to it. I am still happy while eating the weird food they say but it taste so good. Even my stomach is happy because of it.

Luxian puts down the cup and coughs a bit, making me look at him. "Let's see a Doctor, Hell," he suggested that makes Linux stop eating.

I looked at him properly and finished the food in my mouth. "It's a waste of money."

Even though I want to know my illness, I don't have money for check up. Before in just a single hand I can easily have a Doctor who's looking at me for a check up, but now I am poor.