PAID FOR PLEASURE

-----~[JENNA'S POV]~-----

My blood is pumping hard and wild with extreme excitement. I am so thrilled and overjoyed beyond measure as I pump the gas continiously. I am driving. I can't believe it. I am freaking driving!!! I laugh, squeal and scream with extreme excitement. What the hell was dad talking about? What the heck did he mean by I am not ready for this? This is me doing this right now and it feels so overwhelming. I can't get enough of it.

This will be my prove to him. I will one day show this to him so he won't have a choice but to get me a vehicle of mine.

Yes!!! This is my excuse. He definitely has no choice on this. I laugh excitedly as I swerve to the right through the almost empty road getting close to a T junction.

The green on the traffic light suddenly switches, changing to red.... What the fuck..... I am taken aback as I step Immediately against the brake with panic as never before eroding me.

Shit. Pheew. That was close. I can't risk getting into trouble with the traffic officials. What the heck am I saying? It's already almost night and the street is almost empty. But I can't disobey the traffic regulations, can I?

I fumble nervously through the dashboard of the car looking for the switch controlling the headlights. My blood is now pumping with both fear, excitement and adrenaline as I look at intervals from the dashboard back to my front to make sure nothing is in my way before I resume my journey. I sigh deeply unable to find the headlights.

Damn it!!!! Its already getting dark and I can't risk this. I have to be careful and cautious. I also have to get back home on time before dad and mom does.

Shit. I nervously fumble through the dashboard, breathing hard with my chest feeling like it is about to explode. While searching with extreme discomfort, I decide to use my phone's torch. I search for it accidentally pulling a lever and the car jerks forward with so much force.

What the....

Before I can rearrange my thoughts to correct my wrong, a loud yelp Interrupts my focus making me all the more confused. I fearfully step on the brake stopping the car immediately. I wait and listen but there is no sound again. I frown and look around me. What was that? I gulp with my heart palpitating excessively. My breathing is hoarse and as loud as ever as I look around vibrating. I finally switch off the vehicle.

"Who... Who's there?!!!" I call out but there is no response. I frown. "Who is that?!!!!!" I yell with fright but there is still no response. "What...." I nervously step down from the car slowly and strain my eyes in the darkness. The street is almost scanty and I can't see a single soul in sight.

I frown and turn back to take my phone from the compartment of the vehicle, switching on the torchlight. I flash it around squinting my eyes. I slowly walk towards the front of the vehicle when my eyes catch something. I look down closely to see a thick black liquid slowly making it's way out from the beneath the car. My eyes go wide.

Oh shit!!!

What have I done?? Did I break an oil tank? Panic shakes my veins. Shit. Dad's so gonna kill me?!! What do I do?

I walk briskly to the front of the car when a horrific sight makes me halt and my eyes go wide.

Holy Spirit!!!!!

"Oh my God..." I shudder and cover my mouth with my hands nearly dropping my phone, panicking.

Fuck!!!

I can now see the source of that liquid. It's not oil. It's.... it's blood and...and... It's from a fellow lying helplessly on the road right in front of the car bleeding from the skull.

Oh my God!!!

I almost scream with fright as I look around me. What have I done??

My lips are trembling excessively. Shit. I rake my fingers through my hair and weep.

I have just... I have just killed a man!!! I have just fucking killed a man!!! Oh god. I grip my hair and weep uncontrollably..........

"Jenna!!! Jenna!!!" A loud voice jolts me from my cocoon of culpability. I jerk up immediately sweating profusely and looking around rapidly.

"What the... Are you crying?" A soft voice whispers beside me and I look up slowly to see my colleagues both peering at me like I am a long lost puppy.

I sigh and wipe my face. "Shit." I mutter and place my palm against my face. "I fell asleep on duty again, didn't i?" I ask as they nod. I sigh deeply. Great. I chuckle. "I am fine guys. Sorry. I just...I am kinda tired."

Harper, my closest partner steps closer. "Are you sure you are okay? You look pale."

I chuckle. " I am fine. I...." I bite my lip. "I am good. I just.. had a bad dream...."

'Filled with guilt.' My mind finishes it for me and I exhale deeply. Shit.

"You don't look good Jenna. Why don't you take today off?"

I scoff and immediately shake my head. I stand. "Nope. I am good, seriously. I am okay. It's fine you guys." I say and walk towards my seat at the coffee stand.

Sean, the fellow who woke me up examines me. "You really don't have to put yourself through this much pressure Jenna. You can take a day off if you want, I will cover up for you."

I sigh as my phone vibrates in my pocket. I take it out and breathe out seeing it's a message from mom. She is informing me that she won't be able to make it home as she has a lot on her plate at the local pharmacy. I sigh and smile feeling my eyes water.