"Ohh baby you're sweet"
"I love fucking your Pussy"
"This is the best thing that ever happened to me-"
Zane thrust deeper; his movements were ones I had been used to for the past three years since we got married.
His touch no longer had an effect on me, or had it ever?
It all didn't matter at that moment.
All I ever did was pretend I enjoyed having sex with him, but in fact, I had never been able to feel the true pleasure of sex.
Drawn by his beauty and charming heart, I gave my all to him and did everything I could to be the best wife to him and stepmom to his son.
Zane, having lost his wife in an accident, was left alone with his son Roman, who had caused me to meet with his father after I helped him when he got hurt in a hit-and-run case.
I never thought a day like this would come.
I grew fond of Roman, and soon Zane popped the question-one I couldn't say no to, as I had developed feelings for him over time.
It all started out good and fine in the few months after our marriage, but my happy moments didn't reach the bed where passionate memories were meant to be made.
Zane was perfect in every way except, of course, in bed.
I'd never truly felt what it meant to have an orgasm; I hadn't heard of it until I discovered it on a podcast.
It's surprising, no doubt, but being buried in work and not having spare time to indulge myself in the rumors around how sex is taken and how it should be felt by both parties took its toll.
I admit Zane was the first to touch me and all, but lately, I've been wondering if I've been depriving myself of a lot in the name of love.
What was I thinking?
I love Zane, but I can't deny what I truly feel and how much I would like to experience what they call an orgasm.
"Lilith, does it feel good?" he asked, his voice hoarse while thrusting as hard as he could.
"Yes," I pretended to enjoy it.
I already knew how to keep my poker face on so he wouldn't catch on.
"I'm getting... close, Lilith... I'm gonna come... Lil..."
"Baby..."
"I love ......"
"Ahhh"
"Ahhhh"
"I am cum...cummm.... cumming"
He pulled out at the last minute, having come all over me before dropping half his weight on me.
His breathing was haggard; he moved to the other side of the bed, facing the ceiling.
Just like that we are done, not more than 4mins, I can't keep this up
I am still young not to experience any sex enjoyment in life.
He closed his eyes and opened them back, staring at me.
"You were amazing," he smiled at me-the same smile that had me hooked all this time.
But as always, I never got the feeling of satisfaction.
I was woken by the alarm I set.
I quickly prepared breakfast and freshened up.
Zane and Roman were already having their breakfast.
We got in the car as our normal routine played out.
Getting to work, I was still caught up in the feeling of nostalgia.
It wasn't easy to hide my discomfort from Ruth.
Although she's my friend and confidant, even she had no idea what I've been putting up with since my marriage to Zane.
"Hey, Lilith, back to earth, will you?" Ruth looked at me with concerned eyes.
"You haven't been listening to me, now have you? You know I've known you for the longest. What's up? Don't tell me Zane has been treating you badly," she said, her voice getting loud, showing her sudden change of mood.
I sighed. "It's not that; as a matter of fact, Zane has just been the best. It's just..." I paused.