Mr Jerk and I

Aviva~~~

I sat on the ground looking at the sight in front of me.

I cried again and again.

"Why did you leave us?"I screamed to the top of my lungs.

" why us" I screamed a gain this time my lungs felt painful but not compared to my heart.

" why did you have to leave us?"I said in lower tone this time lowering my head and looking down at the grave.

I just couldn't understand life or was it fate?

It took from us the most loved person.

"Why did you have to leave us miserable with no support dad?" I said looking down at his grave.

The grave I was sitting at the moment hopping that my dad could comeback and live happy with us like how we used to be.

Hoping that at least my dad could come and take me to where he went up there

Hoping that when I go back home everything could go back to where they were before my dad died.

I felt lost and empty

I felt sorrow and numb I couldn't move I felt like I had to pour all my heart and tell my dad everything that has happened in the last two years.

Three years of pain

Three years of misery

Three years of trying to keep up.

Three years full of pain and tears even now.

The years we learnt that we were never going back to that complete family we used to have.

My heart felt heavy with pain.

I could feel every piece of it shattering down.

I have been holding pain and tears that threatened me to shade them but remained masked.

Masked for who I loved and didn't want to lose also.

My mom my sister my friends.

I had to be strong so that I could show my sister and my mom that I was strong for them.

I had to mask my emotions but I was not good at it.

Always a mother knows their daughter best but little did I know that even my best friends saw it.

The pain the hurt the shatter the pieces.

Face could hold and mask emotions but eyes are always like open books.

I had to show my mother that I was okay because I did not want her to worry about me.

She wasn't over my father's death.

But she still worried over me.

She didn't show it but she did not tell me either.

I had to be strong but after some point in two years I felt that it was enough