"What are you waiting for? Just do it, Bev." Hailee kept on convincing me.
I looked at her, apprehensively. "B-But I'm scared. What if-" Before I could finish my words, she already cut me off.
"Oh come on! It's normal to feel scared but there's no point if you'd continue being like this. So, try it now. If you never try, you'll never know." She then showed me her warmest smile as she caressed my arm.
Her smile and her soothing voice were too comforting, and she's really a great convincer-there's no doubt on that. In the end, I found myself walking inside the restroom with a troubled mind. My heart never stopped beating so loud, it only worsened as I closed the door and sat on the toilet bowl.
It's as if any minute by now, I'm going to collapse due to the anxiety lingering through my system. I just know I never saw this coming. No one ever did. I just woke up one day and I started feeling the symptoms.
God knows how hard I tried to ignore it and disregard the possibilities. But later on, I still failed. Hailee still found out. She never believed my excuses. For her, I'm such an in denial bitch. Well, I really am. I wasn't clueless. I was just in denial.
But right now, I'm just tired of denying it.
It was only a few minutes after I entered the cubicle yet it felt like eternal for me. Another second passed and I was done peeing. Using my trembling hand, I took the tube out with my pee in it and began to put a few drops on the strip. My heart continued pulsating against my chest as I waited for the result. I feel lightheaded the whole time, and my knees were shaking too.
God. I'm so fucking nervous. But I have no rights to throw questions because in the first place, I was at fault for this mistake. There's no one to blame but me... and him.
"Oh, my God." Tears immediately pooled around my eyes. I covered my mouth to contain my sobs. I never blinked while staring at the result before my eyes.
Two fucking red lines. Fucking positive.
I tried the other and the result was just the same. Holy crap...