One night and everything changes

*** In Sarah's skin ***

I went to have a coffee with my best friend Helena. We are chatting around a table and each holding their cup of coffee.

Helena: So, are you okay? Why are you doing this head?

It is true that I make a skull, to tell the truth I ignore where to put my head, I am full of anxiety.

Helena (snapping my fingers to get me out of my thoughts): hey ooh! What are you thinking there? Your coffee will cool.

I really don't go well morally, I don't know where to start. Always with trouble constantly, I start to believe that I have bad luck in my veins. I know that I exaggerate by saying this but it is stronger than me what I live.

I take the cup of coffee, I drink a sip and place it again on the small table. Helena is constantly probing me, she awaits an explanation for all this. She knows there is something that bothers me and I can't hide anything on my emotions. I would say that it is the only person after my father to really know me.

Helena: Sarah, don't make me waste my time, give birth! I know there is something wrong so I listen to you.

Sarah (I sigh): I ... I am at the end ... I ...

Without realizing it, I am shedding tears. She takes my hands, her eyes compatiating with my pain. I am at a time of my life when I no longer know where to put my head. Often I wonder if suicide will help me get rid of the burdens of life.

Helena: Ssst ... I'm here ... (she makes a sign to the server that brings us a glass of water, she gives me the glass of water) a little water, it will do you good.

I drink the water, wipe the tears with my thumb and then take a deep inspiration.

Sarah: It's pregnancy.

Helena: What? Is the baby well? Is there a problem?

Sarah: None of this, I'm about 5 weeks of pregnancy and I don't know how to announce it to Joaquim. You know him, he can take this pregnancy badly.

Helena: You are not telling me that you plan to get rid of it, if this is the case and well I will not support you.

Sarah: No ... far from me, the idea of ​​getting rid of this pregnancy. I have already made ideas on the baby you know!? How to hold it, give it breasts, rock it ...

Helena (sad mine): Ah yeah I see! And Joaquim, have you never hit the conversation of having children?

Sarah: Hmm no, you know it's not someone very sociable, you can never chat with him, always on the nerves. Pouf, I'm starting to be fed up. I don't think he's ready to be a father and that's what scares me the most.

Helena: Maybe with the arrival of your future baby, he will start taking his life in hand and being more responsible.

Yes, there are people with the arrival of children they change positively and I hope it will be the case for Joaquim. Everyone wonders why I am with a guy like Joaquim, the truth is that I love Joaquim. I hope it will change but the more time passes and the more I start to lose this hope. If he does not want to change his way of life and well I will end up leaving him to live the life I want. But for the moment, we will see what will happen when he learns that he will be a dad.

Sarah: Yes ... you may be right and I should be a little more patient.

When I talk about patience, I was really patient and I am still with him. Soon we will be six years of relationship and when I think I dropped everything for him, my school, my family. Obviously, no member of my family agreed with our relationship but I have stubbornly and I don't know if I regret it today.

All I know is that Joaquim is not the same guy I fell in love, I discovered another side of him when we decided to live under the same roof.

Helena: What do you plan to tell her the news when?

Sarah: I don't know, but not for the moment. Already that there are tensions between us if I add it, it will make a bigger concern.

Helena: You can do it, maybe about three months of pregnancy.

My phone starts to ring, I check and I see that it is Joaquim who tries to join me, I don't want to get to his call. I put the phone that continues to ring, Helena gives me a look to try to understand the reason why I do not answer the call.

Helena: Who?

Sarah: Joaquim!

Helena: But what are you waiting for to answer this call?

Sarah (sighing): I don't want to.

Helena: Sarah, what are you playing there? Yesterday you were madly in love with him and today you don't even want to answer his call, I imagine that tomorrow will be even worse. Pff!

Sarah: I don't want Wesh.

Helena: If Joaquim calls you it is for two reasons and you know, either to ask you where and with whom you are either he wants to apologize after having shit.

Sarah: We argued last night and he dared to raise my hand on me, I did not hesitate to fuck him outside even if I know that it is his apartment.

Helena: Phew! I start to believe that your mother may be right, Joaquim is not the ideal guy for you ...

Sarah: Helled, please ... It's not the time.

Helena: It's true, you deserve someone good, a man with the big H, the one who will love you, take care of yourself and respect yourself ... Not this bastard who beats you all day long.

Sarah: It's me, I caused her.

She drops a big breath.

Helena: He's gone, you feel guilty again. Although you could have done, it is not a reason for him to raise his hand on you, there are only the pigs that do that. Yes, the cowards which, instead of fighting with their equals, they let off steam on their joints....