SAM POV.

It's been five years since we got married. It's been five years since we got together. Nothing changed. That's how it treats me. I endured everything like this.

I was sitting on the sofa while waiting for Ezekiel here in the living room. It's past 12 pm but I still haven't come home. I always come home late. It always does this. Sometimes I come home drunk. Sometimes he comes home with a woman. The only thing I can do is endure all the pain.

I looked at the door when I heard the hum of the car that had just entered. I stood up to meet Keil. I fixed my soot robe before I approached the door..

but..

Kiel entered there while kissing a woman in his arms. The woman's legs were wrapped around Kiel's waist while Kiel's two hands were still on her seat. I was stunned while looking at the two.

Their kiss deepened. I immediately heard Kiel's soft voice and the woman's moan. They both giggled and laughed. I remained standing. I can not move. I couldn't take a step as if something heavy ran over me.

My tears fell one by one as they faded while still looking at her walking while kissing. They passed me like a breeze. They passed me like I didn't exist in this house even though Kiel could see me.

My breath is heavy. I overcame the one who was killed again and again while looking at the two while going up to the second floor. I heard the woman's moan again. With each moan I was stabbed again and again. I was weak and could barely feel my knees.

SH*T!

I sat down on the sofa in no time before I saw them. Next, my tears flowed. Like it was said at our wedding. I am the wife but someone else loves me. As it threatened our marriage it did.

I bowed down as my tears flowed one after another. I cried and thankfully the companion was already asleep. I caught my breath. I still need to breathe in to steady myself but I can't do it especially with what I witnessed.

This has been done to me over and over again. He brought the woman again and again but nothing changed. It still hurts. It's still heartbreaking to see the man you love who has a different look and feel.

I smiled painfully and let my tears flow. It's ok Sam.

I remained sitting on the sofa while calming myself down. I don't know how many minutes I sat there just waiting for my heart to lighten up. I remained bowed while the tears were still flowing. I didn't even bother to wipe it off. I let it flow. This is all I can do. To release the pain by crying.

When I was exhausted and even weak. I tried to stand up. I wiped my tears and walked slowly. I grabbed the railing of the stairs to hold on to it. The weight is heavy in my chest as I step. With every step I took on the stairs, my chest got heavier but I chose to strengthen my heart and my body.

I finally went up to the second floor. I slowly walked to my son's room. I passed Ezekiel's room. I almost ran to my son's room when I heard one after another grunting in our room. My heart aches. My hair stood on end.

SH*T!

I immediately entered my son's room and the black theme was revealed to me. The room is messy. The toys scattered at the foot of the bed. I slowly approached my son who was fast asleep. I lay down next to it before I gently kissed it on my forehead as my tears fell.

AUSTEN KIEL VALERIAN

I am the reason why Ezekiel and I got married. I am the reason why Sofia left Ezekiel. I hugged my son. I have no regrets for what we did. I will never regret what we did because the result is my son. It's a matter of mine why my husband is so mad at me

"goodnight Austen, mommy loves you so much." I whispered to him even though he couldn't hear me because he was dead asleep. I wiped my tears. Aren't you used to it Sam? I smiled bitterly because I knew to myself that even if I get used to it.

It still hurts.

I slowly closed my eyes and tried to get out of my mind what I saw earlier but I couldn't. I feel that even though Ezekiel and I are far away from our room, I can still hear their moans

I got up and left the bed. I fixed my son's blanket before I went to the veranda of my son's room. I hugged myself as the wind greeted me immediately. I'm just in a robe.

I wiped my tears that flowed again as I remembered and felt what it was doing. My heart aches for what Kiel is doing to me. The wind blew my loose hair. I just hope the woman leaves soon because I don't want my son to see it.

I went back inside the room. I closed the veranda before I went to my son's bed and sat there. My tears have dried. I kissed my son once on the cheek before closing my eyes tightly. I have to get out of my mind what I saw earlier. I did succeed. I slept soundly.

"WHAT?"

I woke up the next day when I heard that. I frowned. I rubbed my eyes then slowly stood up to see who it was. My son is still asleep and I can breathe easy because of that. I stood up and went straight to the door and opened it slowly.

Kiel and the girl he brought last night stood face to face with me. My son's room is in front of Kiel's room. The two face each other.

"after you enjoyed yourself last night and then you just let me out of here?" I feel the woman's annoyance. Kiel is always like that. After being integrated, it will be thrown away like garbage.

"not really." none of my husband's own answers. I don't know what to feel. The woman's eyes widened and looked at my husband in disbelief.

"what?" I feel when a woman offends you. This is the only way I know that Kiel is only wearing boxers while the girl is fully dressed.

"just leave woman." Kiel said without emotion. My emotions are varied. I felt pain and envy. I bit my lower lip when I felt the pain in my heart.

"mommy?"

SH*T!

I looked at the bed when I heard my son's voice. I immediately closed the door and immediately went to my son's bed to prevent him from getting up. The woman hasn't left yet.

DAMN IT!

My son rubbed his eyes. I felt a little pity for my son. I'm sorry for this because I can't stop myself from crying. I kissed it on the forehead again.

"Sleep first." I said softly before I lay back on the bed to be next to my son. I immediately felt its embrace on me.

Kiel's girl needs to leave first. I don't want my son to see what kiel is doing. I don't want to hurt my child. I kissed his cheek again before closing my eyes.