Hic!~
I promised myself to endure, I promised myself to be the better person and it would all pass away, I promised myself not to cry… yet here I am, head to knee, crunched up as I rocked back and forth with puffy red eyes unable to stop my running nose as tears poured without restraint.
I've been good, father, I swear! I hadn't caused any trouble. I've been quiet… like a good girl. I listened to all you said. Why… why do you still do this to me? Had I done anything wrong?
Teachers… classmates… I've been a good student too. Did I miss a step to get punished so harshly?
"Arrrrrgh!"
It hurts!
These thoughts ran endless, the ache down there in my elementary school skirt throbbed without rest as it voiced its own grievances.
I don't think I can take any more punishment there anymore. No more… please...
The sound of footsteps was fast approaching. It couldn't be… they couldn't have found me so soon. Will I get punished for running away? Oh, you stupid Isadora, why did you leave they will definitely punish me more!
I don't have anymore chocolates and my food ran out. I will be punished… Oh no, I will be punished!!!
I need to go… move right now… away from sight.
"Ahh!" A suppressed wince escaped from my mouth.
I couldn't move, it hurt too much down there. My sitting position must cause this… they will catch up… I'd get beaten again… no… no…
"Hey, little girl!"
A grumpy voice reached my ears… a voice I would never forget.
I remained still unable to look up. They caught up?
"How did you find my hideout?" The boy, I assume, huffed.
No one's hitting me yet? Why… oh no do they intend to do it later… has my punishments gotten greater… has...
"Hnngh!" I screamed in pain as my head was forced up from the comfort of my knees, the breeze kissed my face.
"Are you deaf or something? When I'm talking to you, you speak!"
It wasn't my classmate, or teachers or father… it was a senior. Have I offended a senior? It seems that I'm a bully magnet.
"Wahhhh….wahhh…" Tears rained down faster than string beads.
"Shit! Don't get snot over me." He let go immediately looking very repulsed.
"Hic… wahhhh…."
Panic rose to the boy's face, "Calm down! Calm down!! Stop being so loud! Do you want to reveal my hiding spot??? It's already hard enough to escape from training." he spoke through gritted teeth.
Calm down? He… he wasn't going to hit me? I calmed immediately with a few hitched breaths.
The boy stayed in a squat not looking too pleased. He kept an eye on me and the other at the exit, cautious of something. I soon realized… he was escaping from something… just like me.
My eyes cleared a little and I recognised him immediately. He was Vincent… the school's naughtiest kid. He is always used as an epitome of a bad example. The worst of the worse.
"Vincent!"
I shuddered as a sharp tone pierced my ear drums.
"Vincent! Come out now. There is no time to play such games. We have lots of work to do!" The commanding tone insisted.
"Ha… haha haha. What a speech! Do I look like a fool or something." Vincent mouthed.
He isn't being a good boy.. but he can afford to laugh? How strange.
"Why are you staring at me like that, weirdo?" He taunted with a smirk.
Overwhelmed, I ended up blurting out.
"You… Why are you so happy? It doesn't make sense. You didn't listen to anyone and you are too glad. How… how do you do that?"
I clasped my hands over my mouth. I spoke without permission… trouble… trouble
He stopped smiling and focused on me. His gaze on mine.
Vincent steeped into his thoughts. Seeing how she is shaking like a leaf she must have had an episode again… recently to be precise. This little girl is quite known for her mysterious behavior. It's rumored that she is mad and overly timid. Not like I indulge myself in filthy rumors anyway… witnessing this firsthand, It seems to be true. What happened this time?
This position lasted for a moment before he spoke.
"You… I know you. The big crybaby from class X. Should have known."
"That..that doesn't answer my question." I squeaked, "How are you so happy? You are not a good person? How…"
He had some good advice for her. She is too irritating!
"Who are you or anyone to define what's good and evil!" He yelled impatiently, "Listen carefully and don't talk to me after I say this. You sound so irritating."
Hah~ "You idiot. I can tell from a glance what the kind of virtuous life you adopt. Not working so well is it?"
I shivered eye-wide. What's wrong with my behavior? Isn't it perfect… Did I sin? Did I do any wrong? Is he mad
"It's me first…. a family motto. Be selfish, you should always come first in everything and situation otherwise risk forfeiting you own part of the fun." His voice got considerably lowerwith much more emotion in his eyes,"At least that is how I was taught."
He suddenly grinned, makingme question if the sentence he made previously was her imagination,"It's you or them… always choose you. You must understand that… ight...you… just.. Don't … faint... on… me! "
I barely heard his next words as in a moment my body used the ground for support as I felt consciousness slip away. However there was one thing I grasped at that moment.. be selfish, always come first.
The opposite of all that I know….the careless words of a 7th grader.