On my twenty-fifth birthday, I discovered my boyfriend of seven years and my best friend were having an affair. They gave me matching necklaces-a sea and a mountain-the very set I had picked out for him as a symbol of our love. It was their silent confession, a confirmation of the betrayal I had just witnessed. Later that night, my best friend was attacked. I rushed to her side, only to be met with my boyfriend's fury. He accused me of being selfish and late, then broke up with me, leaving me alone and bleeding in the snow after I coughed up blood from my terminal lung cancer. He didn't see the blood. He didn't know I was dying. He just saw me as an inconvenience. My world shattered. I had been hiding my illness to spare them pain, only to find they were building their happiness on my quiet suffering. I received his call from the hospital, not out of concern for me, but because he had just discovered the truth about my cancer. He was too late. I was already on a plane to Oregon, having sent my final message: "I love you both. Always. Find your happiness. I'll be okay." This was my last gift to them-their freedom, bought with my life.
On my twenty-fifth birthday, I discovered my boyfriend of seven years and my best friend were having an affair.
They gave me matching necklaces-a sea and a mountain-the very set I had picked out for him as a symbol of our love. It was their silent confession, a confirmation of the betrayal I had just witnessed.
Later that night, my best friend was attacked. I rushed to her side, only to be met with my boyfriend's fury. He accused me of being selfish and late, then broke up with me, leaving me alone and bleeding in the snow after I coughed up blood from my terminal lung cancer.
He didn't see the blood. He didn't know I was dying. He just saw me as an inconvenience.
My world shattered. I had been hiding my illness to spare them pain, only to find they were building their happiness on my quiet suffering.
I received his call from the hospital, not out of concern for me, but because he had just discovered the truth about my cancer. He was too late.
I was already on a plane to Oregon, having sent my final message: "I love you both. Always. Find your happiness. I'll be okay." This was my last gift to them-their freedom, bought with my life.
Chapter 1
Alycia Lawson (POV)
The rain hammered against the window, a relentless drumbeat against my already aching chest. I traced the condensation with a trembling finger, each breath a shallow, painful effort. I knew it was my lung cancer, eating away at me, but tonight, the cold dread had nothing to do with my body failing. It was about something far more insidious, something that felt like a betrayal of my very soul.
I saw them through the kitchen door, their shadows dancing on the wall, intertwined and impossibly close. Kyle, my boyfriend of seven years, and Carmelita, my best friend, my sister. Their laughter, soft and intimate, cut through the storm outside and lodged itself in my throat. I squeezed my eyes shut, a wave of nausea washing over me, but the image was already burned into my mind. Kyle' s hand, so familiar, brushing Carmelita' s cheek. My stomach clenched.
My twenty-fifth birthday. A milestone I wasn't sure I'd reach. And this was my gift.
I watched as Carmelita leaned in, whispering something into Kyle' s ear. He smiled, a genuine, unguarded smile I hadn' t seen directed at me in months. Then, she pulled back slightly, and a glint of metal caught the faint light from the living room. It was a necklace. A delicate silver chain, with a small, perfectly sculpted wave pendant. My heart dropped to my feet. I knew that necklace.
It was one half of the "sea and mountains" set I had picked out for Kyle weeks ago. He had told me he loved it, the concept of two halves completing a whole, representing our enduring bond. Our bond.
I remembered the day I bought it. It was a small, independent jeweler, hidden away on a side street. I' d spent hours agonizing over the perfect gift, something meaningful for our seven-year anniversary-a gift that had become my birthday gift, as he' d said our love was eternal, transcending dates. He' d kissed my forehead then, his eyes full of a warmth that now felt like a distant memory. He' d promised he would cherish the mountain half, always keeping it close to his heart, just as I would keep the sea. He' d said it was our symbol. A quiet promise between us, our future entwined.
But now, the sea was around Carmelita' s neck. And the mountain? I knew where it would be.
My chest tightened, a sharp, searing pain that wasn't just the cancer. It was colder, deeper. A betrayal that cut through every layer of my carefully constructed peace. How could they? How could she? Carmelita, who had been my rock since we were kids in foster care, who had sworn to protect me from everything. She was my fiercest defender, my only family.
A faint buzz vibrated from my pocket. It was the reminder for my next cancer treatment, a gentle nudge from my phone to face my other, more physical, battle. The irony was a bitter taste in my mouth. I was dying, silently, and they were falling in love, just as silently.
I waited in the dim hallway, leaning against the cool wall, trying to regulate my breathing. Each minute felt like an hour, each second a slow torture. Their hushed voices, the occasional soft touch I glimpsed, made the air thick with an unspoken truth. My heart pounded, a frantic bird trapped in a cage, threatening to burst through my ribs.
Finally, Kyle' s voice, a little louder this time. "She'll be up any minute."
Carmelita chuckled, a sound that used to bring me comfort, now like shattered glass. "Don't want to ruin the surprise, do we?"
A surprise, indeed.
I heard the rustle of clothes, the sound of careful adjustments. They were preparing themselves, putting on their masks. My turn to put on mine. I took a deep, shaky breath, pushing down the cough that threatened to betray me. I plastered a smile on my face, a brittle, fragile thing that felt alien on my lips.
I stepped into the light, my voice, surprisingly steady, cutting through the manufactured silence. "Hey, guys. What's all the secrecy about?"
Carmelita' s head snapped up, her eyes wide, a flicker of something-guilt? fear?-crossing her face before she replaced it with a bright, almost frantic smile. She rushed towards me, enveloping me in a hug that felt stiff and artificial.
"Alycia! Happy birthday, sweetie! We were just getting everything ready." Her voice was a little too high, a little too enthusiastic. She pulled back, her hands still gripping my shoulders, her gaze searching my face. "You look a little pale. Are you feeling okay?"
The concern in her eyes felt like a fresh wound. It was the same look she' d given me countless times over the years, a genuine worry that had always stemmed from a place of fierce loyalty. Now, it was tainted.
"Just a little tired," I murmured, forcing my smile to widen. I avoided Kyle's gaze. I didn't want to see the confirmation there. "It's been a long day."
Kyle, who had been standing a step back, hesitant, finally moved forward. He reached out, then paused, his hand hovering awkwardly before dropping to his side. He cleared his throat. "Yeah, you should sit down. We have... gifts."
His words, usually so warm and reassuring, felt cold and distant. I remembered a time, not so long ago, when he would have immediately wrapped me in his arms, his concern tangible, his touch a balm. Now, there was a chasm between us, wide and terrifying.
Carmelita' s eyes darted from Kyle to me, then to the floor. A tiny muscle twitched in her jaw. She was trying to act normal, but the tension was a live wire in the room.
Kyle kept his distance, a subtle but undeniable barrier. He seemed to shrink, his shoulders hunched, his gaze avoiding mine. It was a physical manifestation of the emotional space he' d already carved out for himself.
"I'm fine," I lied, my voice thinner than I intended. I tried to inject some lightness, to pretend everything was okay. "Let's open them! I can't wait to see what mischief you two cooked up."
Mischief. The word tasted like ash. I wished I could truly believe it was just mischief. I wished I could close my eyes and make the world disappear, make the cancer disappear, make their betrayal disappear. But the clock was ticking, not just on my life, but on this fragile facade.
"Carmelita has a surprise for you first," Kyle said, his voice flat. He pointed vaguely towards the living room.
Carmelita' s face brightened, a forced, theatrical cheerfulness. "Oh, you're going to love it! It's something I've been wanting to do with you for ages, a little adventure just for us." Her eyes shone, a flicker of the old Carmelita, the one who planned grand, silly schemes to lift my spirits.
Kyle cut in, a hint of something sharp in his voice. "Don't forget, I put in a lot of thought too. It's a joint effort." He caught Carmelita's eye. Their gazes locked for a fleeting second, a silent conversation passing between them, a shared secret.
I watched them, a dull ache spreading through my chest. They were a unit. A team. And I was the outsider, the stranger in my own life. Their easy smiles, their comfortable banter, it was like a private dance I wasn't invited to. It was the kind of connection Kyle and I used to have, the kind Carmelita and I had always shared. Now, it belonged to them.
"Okay, okay, you two," I said, forcing a laugh that sounded hollow even to my own ears. "Lead the way. I' m ready for whatever you' ve got." I tightened my grip on the doorframe, my knuckles white. My legs felt like lead. Every step was an effort. I just wanted this night to be over. I just wanted to escape, to run and hide from the truth that was suffocating me.
As I turned to follow them, a fleeting reflection in the darkened window caught my eye. Kyle reached for Carmelita's hand, his fingers intertwining with hers. She didn't pull away. Her head rested for a moment on his shoulder, a small, intimate gesture that spoke volumes. The wave pendant on her neck glinted.
My breath hitched. They were together. Truly, deeply, sickeningly together. It wasn't just a physical act I had seen. It was an emotional connection, a bond forged in secrets and soft touches. My heart constricted, a cold, hard knot in my chest. There was no more space for me in their intertwined world. I was already gone.
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