Am I going to do this?
Am I willing to do it?
I'm already here, right?
I have no other options and I have thought a lot about this proposal since Loren offered it to me, when I left home I came determined and now being here I haven't even crossed the door and I already feel like turning around and leaving.
Oh my God, I don't even know why I think about it like I have more options than this.
I left university to pay for the treatment and I had to mortgage my parents' house when Kara got worse now that she is gone, this is the only thing I have left and I can't give the bank the facility to take away the only memory I have of her. For my family, the worst thing is that the debt has grown so much that it is very possible that the house will not be enough to pay it off.
I have run out of options just as I did back then and as a result nothing went well for us, however, the different thing here is that I have nothing left but this, and I have no reason to worry or fear.
What else can I lose and risk by taking this option?
I will have the money for the house and I will stay with her, I am not risking anything by taking the name Sugar Baby.
Even thinking about the definition is absurd, I don't even know how this works well.
Sex in exchange for money.
Despite everything, the word prostitute keeps repeating in my head, no matter how much I try to erase it, and God, I am not even a very sexually active woman, in my 21 years of age I have only had one boyfriend in my life, one who By the way, he left me when he realized that he couldn't carry the responsibility of being a perfect girlfriend and taking care of my sister at the same time.
He got tired of waiting for me and gave me an ultimatum I chose Kara, there are many men in life, but you only have one family and if he couldn't understand that, then I was the one who was wasting my time with him.
I take a breath and look at the huge mansion house.
I have already lost everything. - I repeat myself. -I can't lose any more.
I have nothing to worry about.
I ring the bell and am greeted immediately, by a tall, older woman, maybe 50 years old.
-You must be Miss Amanda Collins.
-Mandy is fine.