Her Own Making: A Family
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threw me toward
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the driveway, racing back to the hospital to
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real love and support, was a s
e been ashamed
I didn'
dn'
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was just
duffel bag an
hes, not
ed with my coding projects, my textbooks, and th
y future,
e, I walked dow
with a deep, soul-
t eaten
c, animal need that cut th
saw a container of lefto
own small act of domestic rebellion in a hous
a bowl and heated
the same table where my fate had been decided and
mall, deliberate
but they couldn' t sto
me, but I would n
ste of cheap cheese and pasta in my mou
ing a bowl of leftovers,
wn in a week, after my unive
o accelerate
ther' s jewelry, enough fo
d my bowl, and left it g
idy act of
, an idea spar
d still be at the h
and work files, was likely still in his
back door and crep
was un
forgot t
t take a
ened his
of a stack of files, was a sle
mmered agai
what
folder on his desk a few weeks befor
renuptial
ned to protect h
ened
as dense, but the
orce, I would be enti
Eleanor Vance, type
te himself from me, financially
asn' t the
r was a separate docume
for B
for her, to be managed by him, to ens
ere already
' t been a tragedy for h
and clean, washed away
actly as I had found it
d my bag, and walked out the fro
going, exactly, but I kne
ap motel a fe
stale smoke and blea
as s
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call was
irst ring, his voice
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you
aid, my voice de
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work th
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terrupted, my voice la
on her arm isn
shame if it
ut allergy, she' s so s
or someone with her... delicate constitu
ilence on the othe
' t have a p
told years ago to get
new the truth, me a
sending a clear messag
can pr
etail, it was a direct threa
ear the gears tu
you talking abou
re taking good care o
fragile,
ng happened to her because of a
mmotion in t
hri
s Bet
have ov
s a mo
ons
her s
came back on th
what do
ft alone," I sai
er phone into th
made m
I wouldn' t be
eir private knowledge and
tion was bri
my duffel
o leave this
e motel and walked
helter was no l
aiting, and I was