hapt
one calls to random pizza runs, their bond had always been unbreakable ,or so Ma
night of Kayla'
k, eyes scanning the crowd. Ryan was supposed to be here by now. She adjusted her black dres
d. Black jeans, a grey tee that clung to his chest, and that stupid, charming
her into a hug. She caught a whiff of
sked, trying to kee
" he said, grin
did Ryan bring
d me so much about you. You'r
hit like ice wate
smile. "Right.
to refill her drink - something stronger this time. Why was
okes, how Ryan rested his hand on her waist like it was second nature. Maya burned with je
elf outside by the pool, trying to catch h
sked, concern al
wouldn't I be
. "What's going on
"Nothing. Everything. I don't know,
ser. "Is it be
dn't a
bother you," he said s
, it
en them thickened with tension - not just fr
spered, "what
she breathed,
is lips brushed hers. So
er lips still tingled from Ryan's kiss. Her mind kept replaying it - over and over
ad the
pposed to be
her phone buzzed.
Can we
t for a while b
: La
oon, he showed up at her door, hands shoved in h
me," she s
ack," he replied
does that mean, Ryan? We're
osed to feel something, Maya.
ds, but she shook her head. "N
nly person in the world. "Or it cou
ly, but her phone buzzed ag
ason's tonight! Y
d back: I'm in. N
d an eyebr
eding air. "Maybe I
gged her body, her curls were wild, her makeup sharp. If Ryan wa
't care. She danced, laughed, and even let Mason - Kayl
. The moment he saw her with Mason,
d straig
k?" he said
"I'm kinda b
ay
how single he is," she inte
kled. "Ver
clenched. "
ut to the balcony,
l are you doi
y. "It sucks, doesn't it? Seeing the
. "So that's what
ser. "This is me figuring ou
nd hungry. It wasn't like the kiss from before - this one was full of f
, breathless. "
aya couldn't stop thinking about the kiss - the second on
just curiosity. It was someth
yan. She needed time. Space
ling through her phone in bed,
d. "Go aw
oice called back. "I
her best girlfriend ho
, pushing inside. "You've b
er lip. "I
up. "Finally! You
ed - then hesitated. "
asped.
nd I hated how m
finally admitting her feelings - the
at's stopping you two f
spered. "Of ruin
her phone b
stairs. Can we
ed an eyeb
"I guess I'm
his car. The moment he saw he
been avo
to think,"
nd
ng," she confessed. "But I can't
r. "Then let's s
s time slower, deeper. Her arms went around his nec
nst her lips, "Co
for a moment
ng forever. She responded with equal fire. Clothes fell away. Touches turned desperate. They made lov
gled in his sheets, ski
d to him.
air from her face. "Now we
the first time
. Because when best friends cross that l
n Ryan's sheets, her head resting on his bare chest, his arm curled pro
reali
crossed
e flooding back. The kisses. The touches. The wa
tching the blan
ed. "Hey..
ed, staring at the wall. "
sitting up beside her. "
kind of answer. "But what are we now, Ryan? Fr
We're something more. I've
er. But instead, her stoma
aid, standing up and
"Wait. Are you r
o think. Please, don
ord, the heat of his gaze
eelings threatening to swallow her whole. But it wasn't easy. Especi
on already? Or worse
wor
d Kayla i
party this week
Jace's. Dress hot.
rimly. Just w
or, drinks flowing. Maya looked stunning in a tight black
amn, Maya. You tryna
le what they lost,"
second she saw Ryan...
met acros
aya laughed bitterly and
d play t
friend-of-a-friend - and started dancing close.
Ryan was watching. She could f
was beside her.
. "Go enjoy your
don't d
lready
ay before he
wn, her hea
esn't always burn clean.The party wa
nce that night at Jace's. No
ad L
She had
- classes, work, anything to stop herself from thinking about him. But
me the
to talk. Ple
en, heart racing. She a
he co
le coffee shop near campus where they u
elt like a
able, eyes tired, hands wrapped around a coffee c
oss from him
good," he
dn't r
up with
shot up
she's n
inked,
e we crossed a line and it was a mistake, and I panicked
isted. "You.
"I think I
bring her to that party? Why did you l
to. I was con
ere," she
table, taking her ha
rt of her ached to say yes. But
said, voice trembl
fell. "May
ce. Just... time to b
"I'll wait. As l
ay gently and stood. "
afternoon sun, her heart
m. She had n
s enough. Not when tr
se it was over, but because it still matt
sumes a friendship, rebuildi
mes out untou
ong Maya had
s. She thought space would help - gi
it made the s
ell of coffee, old music playlists, he
hone buzzed, she
it w
hate
ith a group of friends - beach house, drinks, an
action. A break fr
escape. Sunlight poured through the windows, waves
in weeks. Her curls were wild, her eyes hidden behind sunglasses. A few
skin, charming smile, and the kind of eyes that said,
And maybe that
der string lights. Jayden pulled her close, and she let him
utiful," he
roat. She leaned in, testing herself, le
their mouths to
sn't
asn'
ed back
inked. "Y
hed. "I thought I was
ly. "Still stu
no
that," he said. "Befo
taring at the stars. The ocean roared in the
ed up he
till mean it?
assed. The
h
ays. Wher
ach house. W
y there.
art dropp
her
end in silence. I'm done
gain.It was nearly midnight when Maya
art po
m. "Uh... Maya? There's a guy at
't need t
on the cool tiles, heart cra
e he
y
led, eyes wild like he'd driven
e," she
d," he said softly
entryway, the party fading behin
arms. "What are
d. "I tried, Maya. But I can't
. She didn't kn
ed. "I let fear drive me. I hurt
, eyes stinging. "Yo
ve you," he said. "But I'm m
ser. "Did I al
for a long moment.
fli
h with it," she whispered
ance between them.
asn't
t's all
ck. She melted into him, arms wrapping around his neck as
l the missed chances, all the bottled-up love,
he breathed b
them. Clothes dropped like forgotten barriers. Skin met ski
just sex
was
ne
per
rayer, and Maya answered with ev
t in confusion this time, but in something r
ed," she
"But this? Us? It
sing her eyes. "Promise
es. But I'll fight like hell to neve
ft gold across the tangled sheets. Maya woke in Ryan's
time in weeks,
," he wh
e replied, ki
ettle in. This was the dream - waking up next to
s come wi
everythin
tarted to notice. Everyone whispered about Maya and Ryan f
ot ev
one, wasn
rnoon after class, her expre
an, huh?" she
er smile ti
" Leila added. "Took him long enou
wned. "E
while he was still talking to me. So... just keep your
deeper than
ay, leaving a b
t her phone. Ryan hadn't texted since mor
Leila
it t
r chapter in Ryan's
her, she replied with a
ur later, sensing th
he asked, concer
nd?" she asked
nked.
eeing her when you kissed me
s face. "Maya, no. She'
explai
ed I had to be honest with myself. About you. But the mom
chest t
tell me that from the
t to give you another
a long time, torn be
t," he said softly. "But I
ed hard. "Th
ded. "
g more, but she didn't
yed th
is arms, a sh
an set your wo
do
t down Ryan hadn
ng text. Not a c
ugh old messages, looking for reassurance. But each unanswer
op thinking abo
Ryan's
his eyes when she
God, she did - but trust was
fter 8 p.m., he
y. Been with th
asual. Detached. Lik
expl
ar all day and th
ou want me to s
at proves I'm not just a
. then they
idn't
her keys and
r flew open before s
ay
ious right now? You ghost me, the
id, running a hand through his hair. "
ot your secret. I'm not your
"Backup plan? You t
"One minute you say I'm everything, the next you're
. "You're listen
to the silence
hit
a
hands on his hips
than this," he said, quieter n
tears welling in her eyes.
pause stretche
her, eyes stormy. "M
pped. "What a
o hot, too fast. Ma
sed. "You're brea
ice cracking. "I just know
ks. "No. We're tearing us a
move. Di
stood
lence said
and walked o
, he didn
y in bed staring a
d him so dee
ad burned too
hips aren't meant
s are meant to
nce Maya walked out of Ryan's
ts. No
, saw friends, even smiled in a few sel
through a world that
The one she told everything to - even bef
ay his name without
hoping. Praying that he would
time, h
ir was cool, the sky painted orange and purp
d the park,
e he
y
to sit on every Sunday after coffee runs, wa
if he'd been w
eyes
hing s
er slowly, he
ired," she
, broken thing. "I
side him. "
asn't the painful kind. It was full of
ly said. "I let my fear sp
nd I let mine convin
ere right, though. We to
ow how to love each other yet. W
"I miss you.
tightened. "I
t, gently tak
ork - talking to someone, facing my crap. B
in her eyes
fairytale, I know we're worth fighting for. Ev
o knew her laugh, her fears, her s
ulder. "Then let's take it slo
r hand. "Slow
long time, no longer af
n friendship burns, it
the way for something
rises from
ge
HE E