The Boy Who Died
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en. I didn't spend all week texting Ben! My breath races.
and a short-sleeved button-down with a tiny print I can't make out from here. Oh, fuck, he's walking over. I shove one of my h
aches. "I should've known you'd beat me here
n die, even if I didn't know that until his mom told me the next d
at his back. He holds his shoulders like Ryan did. I t
he pictures of Ryan on my phone. I can finally prove that my mind is playing trick
y phone likes to hide my hidden folders. But when I click on the bu
ch my whole phone. Not even a single instance of his name, but I guess that's not weir
fter the party, an awful v
idn't really
found it und
't have been Ben. It would've had to be someone I came home with.
n, collapsing my lungs for
ands. "Don't make fun of me, but I think I've had enough of the
ack, or when he'd just pulled an all-nighter, with a shot of espresso. I
of my friends used to make fun of me f
a real hardass. Let me guess, she always sug
at French films. They weren't Ryan's favorite by any means, but he believed directors should wa
don't know if you noticed, but I wa
I was surprised you w
figured it was time to admit that if we did any of
ack in his chair and runs a hand through the flop of sandy hair that nearly falls into his
e of lead. I couldn't forget h
nspiratorially. "It's a unique
or when I was filling out my name-change paperwork. "It was my
ea who I'm named after, but I used to
myself the luxury of actually raising my
y h
so imagine you're Ben A., you're about seven, and you want
no
now your parents moved from New Philadelphia right before you started school." He laughs self-conscio
ecause I knew Ryan at that age-and the story i
t's my mom's favorite Ben-as-a-kid anecd
en to my mom in the five years since my i
e together. I went to college close enough to home to
mom was protective, but that was at least partially bec
tern seaport." He grins. A college town sprouted up around Ardent, and
rora has been my go-to fake hometown for years now, just a fifteen-minute dri
ve actually heard of that.
r of disbelief or he
o happen." He ducks his head. "I'll step out from behi
eyes that Ryan only had when he was completely invested in a project, his fo
Coast cities think looks quaintly Midw
and nods seriously.
d he was nervous. The man in front of me
lips, and he opens one e
of the tension slips