arning to cuddle Sean whom I thought was besid

wice as fast, what the fuck did I do?! I'm a mess, I'm a fucking mess! W

de between Sean's offer of taking a stand or just letting life play things out, honestly i'm confused.

giving me love, resulting in three broken hearts and a messed-up situation. I wonder how this can ever be fixed. Walk

hing comes along to destroy it. I resent them both for causing this, yet I can't help

e Sean's pain, his hurt, his anger. He's my Master, my husband,

roduced Steve, a friend, into our lives. Steve is truly amazing, but the problem is he fell in love with me, and unknowingl

ving out, I felt heartbroken. Sean left us to say goodbye, and the thought of never seeing Steve again hurt so much.

o do about this whole thing? I have the option of having them both, staying married to Sean, still being his submissive,

tly raising my head, I look at him. My heart shatters seeing his pain a

babes, le

h there, I feel like I am drowning in thoughts, memories, a

oom, we have the girls, so I can't drin

ts? With Kyle, I just locked myself away for months and months till they left

drops, his body walking towards me,

eeping with Steve, for fucking him without me say

t? I have no issues with him punishing me, I just don't wan

ill be in the room

ce would serve multiple purposes-it would lead me to my subspace, offering a few precious minutes of respite from my overw

him, witnessing the pain etched on his face. I felt a sense of reluctance, making it difficult to utter any words. It just felt

e floor, anticipating the punishment I believed I deserved. He disliked punishing me; he rarely did it, given his aversion to

s; you will count with me. I won't hold back, so be prepared to use the safe word," he declared. A slight snicker esc

eing wielded in the air reached my ears. The initial sting was sharp, promptin

l reminded me that I

ip cutting through the air made my body tense, preparing for th

olding back, and for the first time, I understo