The Unwanted Bride

“"You never looked at me as myself. You never treated me as a spouse because another woman is in your mind when we're together. Every time you say 'I love you,' with every embrace and kiss, it's her you're thinking of, not me. You loved me not because you loved me, but because you were keeping my sibling alive within me." Certainly! Here is the text translated into English: --- "Damn you!! Put me down!!" I kicked as hard as I can. I even pulled his hair and bit his shoulders so that he will let me go. "Stop it Van! You might fall!" he protested. But I tried even harder to free myself. I kept screaming for him to let me go, but he remained deaf. "You monster!! Manipulative jerk!! I hate you!! I really, really hate you!!" I shouted. I was on the verge of tears due to the extreme anger I felt towards him. Suddenly, he pushed me into a room and dropped me onto the sofa. Before I could even stand, he immediately went on top of me and pinned my arms. "Get off me!!" I wriggled my arms away. He closed his eyes and pressed his body closer to mine. My eyes widened when I felt 'him' coming to life. "Xander?" panic laced my voice. He put his forehead against mine. "God, I missed you so much Vannah." He said, almost sobbing. I remained silent for a while. "Let me go Xander." His grip tightened. He shook his head and buried his face in my neck. "I can't. Savannah, I can't. I can't let you go." I exhaled. Man, this is so frustrating. "Xander, please. I don't want this anymore. I'm tired of you. I'm tired of all of this. Just, let me go." He looked at me wide-eyed. "No Savannah! No! You can't get tired. No! You can't leave. I can't bear another day without you, I'll go crazy. Please, just don't leave me." I saw a tear fall from his eyes. I closed my eyes. No Savannah. Don't let yourself be fooled. Don't repeat your mistake from seven years ago. "Savannah.." he called. I just stared at him. I tried to push him with all my might and I succeeded. I sat there while he was trying to reach me. "Stop it Xander! What's so hard to understand about me not wanting this!" He was taken aback by what I said. He turned pale and seemed to have no strength to lower his hand. "I'm sorry. For everything that I said to you--" I cut him off and stood up. "No. Don't ask for forgiveness. I understand. I understand it all, Xander." My voice broke so I paused. I took a deep breath as I felt the same pain resurface. "I perfectly understood all the things that you said that night." "Savannah.." "I know, I know that you married me not because you love me. You married me because you're in love with my twin, right?" "NO!!" he tried to hug me but I stepped back. "Don't touch me." "Savannah, please, let me explain." He pleaded but I just shook my head. "Your explanation is seven years late Xander. Everything is broken beyond repair." I shook my head and reached for the door. He grabbed my arms and hugged me tightly. "No. I won't give up, Savannah. I won't give you up without putting up a damn fight! Remember, we're still married. You're still my wife." I laughed bitterly when he said that. I pushed him away and looked him straight in the eyes. "I was never your wife Xander. I am just your substitute bride."”