Hate That I Love you

“"Arisse, let's go home" my best friend Kim pulled me "No. I'll stay here. Let's drink some more. I want to forget" I said and raised a glass of whiskey. I stood in the middle of the dancefloor and shouted there. I grind my body to the accompaniment of the song. I let my body go with every beat of the music "Let's go, Arisse please" Kim whispered to me as I saw a man dancing by her side. Who wouldn't be attracted to my best friend with a very white complexion? Has a pointed nose. The eyes are black and have long eyelashes. Add to that her waist length black hair. Her lips were red and just the right thickness. Its body is perfect like an hour glass. I closed my eyes again and felt the music inside the bar. I just really want to forget this night. Let me please. I ground my waist as violent arms pulled me. I was greeted by a pair of angry eyes "You go home or I'll drag you out" he said with emphasis "Let go of me!" and tried to pull his arm back but it only tightened his grip on me He pulled me out of the bar for nothing, not caring if we bumped into someone. "I'm hurting Mark" I said causing him to let go of my arms. Behind him I saw Kim who attended me immediately. "Sorry. I knew I wouldn't be able to bring you home, so I called Mark," Kim explained "Could it be Arisse, I know you're a b*tch but don't feel sorry for Kim! Look, I've always caught her here taking care of you when you're drunk! She's a sensible woman, don't make her look like you" Mark yelled at me "Why didn't I tell him to come with me! He came here willingly, I didn't text him or call him. I sent him home, he didn't want to. I wanted to stay!" "Go, get back there!" he shouted and pushed me into the bar "Mark" Kim stopped her boyfriend "It's annoying Kim that even you will be held because of what he's doing, if he wants to get away, just don't take you with him" he said and stormed off to his car "Arisse, come I'll take you home. I promised Uncle that I would take you home" I stared at my best friend. I saw the worry in his eyes which made me agree. We rode quietly in the back of Mark's car. Silence enveloped the inside of the car before Mark started it I was looking out the window. Watching every passing vehicle. I let out a few sighs "Are you okay?" I looked at Kim. I looked directly into his eyes before shaking my head. "You can tell me everything. I'm always here to listen" he said sincerely "Prin is cheating on me" the tears that I had been hiding came out Kim's eyes showed surprise and confusion "How? I mean, Prin is impossible? Maybe you're just suspicious?" "No, I saw their text messages. I saw all the 'I love you', 'How are you', 'I miss you', Even in our anniversary, she texted the woman 'I wish you're here with me tonight '" more and more tears flowed from my eyes. I wiped it violently. "I'm with Kim. It was our fucking anniversary. I surprised him. I did all the things he wanted us to do, then I can read it! The pain is like I've been stabbed and stabbed again and again, here" while pointing to my heart before resting my head on the backrest of the car. I let my tears fall. "Did you two talk already?" Mark groined while peering at me in the car's rearview mirror. "I can't. I can't see him right now. I'm too vulnerable "Maybe you should hear his explanation as well" he said lazily "You're your best friend because you can defend yourself. You're both stupid together!" I said before closing my eyes I felt Kim's warm hand caressing my palms. He put my head on his shoulder while stroking my hair "Everything will be okay. Calm down first. You don't want to talk to him while you're angry, you might not understand each other even more. Take a break first" I nodded in response. 5 years. I thought we were strong. I thought that was enough to say that Prin and I love each other. 1st year high school when I met him. The moment I saw him I knew he's the one that's why when he flirted I answered him immediately. I was happy in our relationship. Contented with the things he gives me. Everyone who sees us always says "we are made for each other" and I fucking believe that! I love him with every bit of my heart but he just hurt me! He hurt me that I feel like I am dying. I want this feeling to stop It hurts. Fucking hurt”