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ng while hiding in here huh? Me: Debby not now please. Her: truth is you were ignorant, how can you apply for school and forget about the scholarship? Me: Debra I really don't need this right now. Her: I know I mean you can't undo it I get it but what's your plan? I shrugged my shoulders. Her: Harvard is a tough school, maybe you should consider going to community college, they aren't really tough. They might understand your stupidity of forgetting about scholarship and give you a chance and I hear they also extend their application period because they know there is a lot of you out there. Me: Jesus Debby do you have a heart? Do you ever stop for a second to think of what you say? Her: baby sis I do care about you. Me: but my feeling! Do you have any idea how hard I have worked through out the year to secure space in Harvard? So you just want me to just forget about it like it's nothing? Do you know how proud mom and dad are that I got in? Her: I get that but it's not enough Nairobi! You can't go to Harvard if you don't have money! It doesn't matter how proud mom and dad are! It's useless just like winning money at the casino but you can't keep it, you have to give it for charity. That sense of pride and happiness is there but your hands are empty!! It's just useless! I put the tub away and sobed. Her: crying won't help! And you are more than welcome to come work with me at the flower shop. I felt like she had just took a knife and stabbed me right at the heart. It hurt that I won't be able to live up to my expectations because of my ignorance. I had dipped my head in the mud running a good race but I couldn't see the finish line. Her: it is what it is sis. It's life.... It happens. You think being a mom, earning peanuts at that flower shop was on my bucket list after graduating from high school? No! I also had dreams, I was ambitious and aimed high but that alone didn't take me anywhere. Me: but I'm not you! I won't just give up on my dreams like that. Her: I didn't just give up! Life knocked me down. Me: but you decided to stay down forever... You still had chance in life well I think you still do. Nothing is impossible! Her: oh yeah? Nothing is impossible? Let's see how you are going to go to Harvard without scholarship! Nothing is impossible right? Mind you mom and dad can't get a loan, dad being a sole breadwinner! Nothing is impossible sis. Again she was right even though she laid it out in a most inhumane way. A call came through my phone, it was an unknown number. So I picked it up. Me: hello... " Hey Robi it's me"I aborted the call, it was James. I had blocked him in all my socials and his number too on my phone. Me: just leave me alone!! I said throwing the phone away. Debby: who was that? Me: James.. Her: your James? Me: not in the moment. Her: what happened? Me: caught him with another girl. Her: damn!! So