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My Life as an Author

Chapter 6 STAMMERING AND CHESS.

Word Count: 1888    |    Released on: 30/11/2017

, which blighted my youth and manhood from fifteen to thirty-five, obliging me to social humiliations of many kinds, to silence in class and on examination occas

d voice Milton's whole Paradise Lost and Regained, and the most of Cowper's poems! That was the sort of tongue-drill and nerve-quieting recommended and enforced for many hours a day, through weary months, by a certain Mr. C., while Dr. P., his successor to the well-named "patient," gave, first, emulcents, and then styptics, and was fortunately prevented in time by my father from some surgical experiments on the muscles of lip and tongue. However, nobody could cure me, until I cured myself; rather, let me gratefully and humbly confess, until God answered constant prayer, and granted stronger bodily health, and gave me good success in my literary life, and made me to feel I was equal in speec

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ve me a farce or a story instead), and one moreover in which any fool well up to crammed book games may crow over the wisest of men in an easy, because stereotyped, checkmate. However, in this connection, I recollect a small experience which proves that positive ignorance of famous openings may sometimes be an advantage; just as the skilled fencer will be baffled by a brave boor rushing in against rules, and by close encounter unconventionally pinning him straight off. When a youth, just before matriculation, I was a guest at Culham of the good rector there, a chess-player to his own thinking indomitable, for none of the neighbours could checkmate him: so he thought to make quick work of a silent but thoughtful boy-stammerer,-by tempting him at an early period of the game to take, seemingly for nothing but advantage, a certain knight (his usual dodge, it appeared) which would have ensured an ultimate defeat. However, I declined the generous offer, which began to

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1 Chapter 1 PRELIMINARY.2 Chapter 2 INFANCY AND SCHOOLDAYS.3 Chapter 3 YOUNG AUTHORSHIP IN VERSE AND PROSE.4 Chapter 4 COLLEGE DAYS.5 Chapter 5 ORDERS AND LINCOLN'S INN.6 Chapter 6 STAMMERING AND CHESS.7 Chapter 7 PRIZE POEMS, ETC.8 Chapter 8 SUNDRY PROVIDENCES.9 Chapter 9 YET MORE ESCAPES.10 Chapter 10 FADS AND FANCIES.11 Chapter 11 SACRA POESIS AND GERALDINE. 12 Chapter 12 PROVERBIAL PHILOSOPHY.13 Chapter 13 A MODERN PYRAMID.14 Chapter 14 AN AUTHOR'S MIND PROBABILITIES.15 Chapter 15 THE CROCK OF GOLD, ETC.16 Chapter 16 SOP SMITH.17 Chapter 17 STEPHAN LANGTON-ALFRED.18 Chapter 18 SHAKESPEARE COMMEMORATION.19 Chapter 19 TRANSLATIONS AND PAMPHLETS.20 Chapter 20 PATERFAMILIAS, GUERNSEY, MONA.21 Chapter 21 NEVER GIVE UP, AND SOME OTHER BALLADS.22 Chapter 22 PROTESTANT BALLADS.23 Chapter 23 PLAYS.24 Chapter 24 ANTIQUARIANA.25 Chapter 25 HONOURS-INVENTIONS.26 Chapter 26 COURTLY AND MUSICAL.27 Chapter 27 F.R.S.28 Chapter 28 PERSONATION.29 Chapter 29 HOSPITALITIES-FARNHAM, ETC.30 Chapter 30 SOCIAL AND RURAL.31 Chapter 31 AMERICAN BALLADS.32 Chapter 32 AMERICAN VISITS.33 Chapter 33 SECOND AMERICAN VISIT.34 Chapter 34 ENGLISH AND SCOTCH READINGS.35 Chapter 35 ELECTRICS.36 Chapter 36 THE RIFLE A PATRIOTIC PROPHECY.37 Chapter 37 AUTOGRAPHS AND ADVERTISEMENTS.38 Chapter 38 KINDNESS TO ANIMALS.39 Chapter 39 ORKNEY AND SHETLAND.40 Chapter 40 LITERARY FRIENDS.41 Chapter 41 A FEW OLDER FRIENDSHIPS.42 Chapter 42 POLITICAL.43 Chapter 43 A CURE FOR IRELAND.44 Chapter 44 SOME SPIRITUALISTIC REMINISCENCES.45 Chapter 45 FICKLE FORTUNE.46 Chapter 46 DE BEAUVOIR CHANCERY SUIT AND BELGRAVIA.47 Chapter 47 FLYING.48 Chapter 48 LUTHER.49 Chapter 49 FINAL.