Perfect yet imperfect

to start wor

ne week. Pathetic, I know. But from next week, I'm going to b

school, I'm to walk straight to work and I'm not leaving till 7pm, which means I get to be home somewhat late and instead of being fast asleep by the time I get home,

only day I can get a goodnight sleep would be on Saturdays. This is practi

part time or even at the library but the mone

hool shit within this week, which is w

ing party, probably when I'm eighty and dying. Liz an

eenage episodes and exactly after 96 hours before I'll be sitting in a class room an

soon will be here to pick us up." Liz sud

him up." I laughed, while

s?" my best friend yelled at me and

mean it in a serious wa

, so Noah promised me to not

s already dark outside and to be hone

we're staying there until morning." I shook my h

t until someone of us is somewhat

the chances that Noah actually won't drin

e who's throwing up in a kitchen's sink. I star

lut." Liz leered at me from the bathro

ad once again because if you would see her dr

for imagination. I decided for a simple black slip dress with my ne

e when did you become so fat?" suddenly I heard

ze that voice ev

k like that!" I could see hi

om my bed and threw it at him. Obviously his reflexes were so much faster than mine

face and almos

of good." he winked at me before finally leaving. Wi

loved, then hated, then loved again, t

childhood together. His mom wanted me to come stay with them after my parents died, but I rejected t

abused each other all the time. Once I even got him a black eye, then he pushed m

pent all the time together, I've seen him running around the house without his diaper, I also reme

mom wanted for him to eat them, so we had to spend the whole afternoon in the hospital where

ssionate about it anymore sadly. I remember when I learned how to read, so

e after school practically every day since his parents were always yelling at each other. I was

winter night. We were both 13, Xavier almost 14. His dad told him that Noora, his new wife, is pr

Next morning my mom came into my room and found us sleeping on the floor with her and dad's wine and whiskey bottles around us. 
"At least no one died, mom." I remember myself saying. I miss her so much. He was there for when when my parents died.

just kind of slipped away. Now we are just jerks to each other all the time and we also don't see each other that much anymore. We de

!" I took that mascara away from her and p

Xavier was already leani

ran and pushed Xavier from the door,

amused and chu

re anyways?" I

s." He says and

party, so you don't do anything stupi

use, it was already full with cars

ut I guess this might be actually fun." Xavier looked in

nded up being pressed closely to his body. We both gasped, being surprised. His arms were around my waist, his blue, almost gray eyes were intensively staring a

he even showed me his dick once and we used to hug all the time and cuddle while sleepin

s after shots and then even more shots. Before noticing, I was already sitting on

re? Everything around me was

s!" some blonde girl yelled and eve

arting to get all blurry and there was this weird feelin

londe girl spun the bottle at Liz


My eyes laid on Xavier. He was casually sitting with one of his leg up, the other just laying.

ted from us. My eyes kept exploring his messy, dark, sometimes a little bit wavy hai

lcohol but I've looked at him this way just a few times bef

uy passed me the vodka bottle. I gladly took it and drank from it, ignoring that disg

d do anything now. I was ready to play. Th

uietly hissed but I c

tand her words. That's when my face dropped and I s