Finally Letting go

o

want you to

you wh

le world at our feet." He's smiling at me but I

need to make the most of every moment. The last th

ent with you. I want to make Archie a part of this trip and I

't kno

re for now? You are on your own. You have to start your life again

my life over no matter what I do, whether I stay he

o away and explore the world in Archies name then I'm movin

ould be a great fresh start and so they sold their home and moved the whole family to Texas.

what

o come back here to live on your ow

, It's ok yo

ruth," He raises one of his perfectly shaped eyeb

ver ok? You promised y

tomorrow at 10 am. If there's anything you know your gonna want to keep but don't want t

s me on the bed and I take a few deep breaths as I realize exactly wha

at exactly is there to stay here for? I can stay and live in hell or I can make

out what's to come. Unfortunately, while I've not been able to sleep I've also managed to keep Tom awake too and now it's 5 am and we've spent

ou don't want to go there but I think you should before w

e that it will be my last chance to go there because after a lot of thinking and talking it through with To

be hard for him as he lived here with us. I lost my home and

ew in front of us. The windows are either smashed and boarded up or black fro

ew shiny knocker and looks nothing like the rest of the house,

o see Jenny my next-door neighbour standing on her d

to say a word, the letter that's in my pocket feels like it's burning my skin but

aby girl," He pushes the front door open and I fight back the sobs that want to leave my body. I've come here so ma

y...

ry,

about we take a look around and box anything we want to keep yes?" I agree and let him pul

ought me, and some photo albums that show the last 9 years of our lives. Un

d his cursing soon brings a small smile to my face. "Sorry Mol,

to me that is saveable, not that there's much but thankfully my memories weren't destroyed in the fire. T

tep inside and even though I knew that the room would be ruined I'm still taken aback by

ghing real belly-clenching laughter. The door creeks as it opens and Tom comes in with a smi

ching, throat-burning sobs wracking my body and I feel myself crumbling to the floor but I don't hit the floor instead I feel st

alking and as hard as it was I think I needed it. I've cried since Archies death but not much as I'

he house before we step outside knowing that this will be the last tim

uck are you

e stuff up, Gemma. I'm l

this house and it's because of you that he died here!" Her voice gets louder and louder but I don't mov

Gemma continues to shout out to me but in all honestly I don't hear a word of it. He sits me in the car before walking around to the driver's sid

e stuff because I am leaving and I'm not coming back. Can you give these to Clare, please? You were right about one thing, Archie loved this house we both

without another word. I get back in the car and we head straight for the motel so t

for you,