In Love With A Superstar

an's

I let out the biggest, longest, most exaggerated sigh I can, mostly to get my moth

n a side street, which means there isn't a single plow coming down their

he the nickname my mother still insist

rennan? It's a fine name, it's the one she gave me at birth but q

en maybe I wouldn't be so embarr

g," I state

erday the Nor'Ea

am I supposed

rom the kitchen like Laverne from th

e one that paid for your condo

next to me. She's wearing an apron with

their friends and I'm due to catch a flight out of

to stay a few

n. Staying a few more nights is easy fo

and only get wet when I decide to jump in the pool not look

e pocket of my hoodie. I pull my phone out, veri

ey

led," Vance Davis bar

the holiday tomorrow and the snowstorm, everything is pushed

ocals calls it th

you cool

na's party tonight, can yo

I picture him rubbin

pinch the bridge of my nose, inhale and exhale

d all the help any gur

earance on behalf of whatever c

olds. Only the hottest, most

ly going because I was paid to. I'm snowed

h his head when it comes to Rayna and me. Sure

e intellect, who I can carry on a meaningful conversation with, someone I wan

back to my room and unpack. Vance said a few days

esser, I find myself lying on my c

the pocket of my hoodie and

always have "a friend" . . . a friend who wants an autograph, a cousin who is such a big fan, a roommate who wants to hook up

dy from high school who I have kept i

onight? I'm stuc

les pop up Jordan: Chill party at my friend'

, which happens to be a half mile from my parents. I

hide behind a hat and go sit in some bar downtown? It's pretty bad when I, mister

p by and leave it at that. I shut my phone off and d

tless nap ever, I get up and find my

, po

e here for a co

m sort of messe

s into the kitchen. I do as she says and takes the seat I'

ights should be normal the day af

tatoes, with green beans. After living alone for a

ah, Vance said I sho

ver to the Brumet's with us, if you'd lik

s. His friend has a place not far f

ireworks, they go off shortl

l always be my favorite. Maybe because it's my hometown, but it feels righ

osses my mind to stay home, but I know the closer it gets to

on that's what mom calls them, and grab my old winter coat from the clos

used to look like when I lived here . . .

y hands are stuffed deep into my jacket poc

y pants are getting wet from where

l my parents and ask them how exactly they got to their fr

p empty-handed because I know there will be someone or many someone's willing to share their liquor wit

r know who might slip something into a drink. I turn aroun

t should, and my calves are screami

new snow workout. It could be the next