Until You Call Again

t my eyes tight and take a deep breath to keep myself from going crazy. In and out. And then it starts, just as I remember it. The words slip throug

lf sighing in satisfaction. Writing has alw

day. Mondays aren't that great but I decide

he respected that. I heard the proposal went great and I'm happy for him,

I sing at the top of my lungs as

t to shut 'em up," Alessia Cara continues

y as I make my way out of my apartment building but I do

st of the way in silence. Three whole months of crying and self-pity might have actually helped.

im because it's all my fault. I made myself believe that the only happiness that exists in this world for me is i

e I have the most interactions with. The list hadn't been shocking to just her and wh

much if I'm

ober, I feel like a brand new person. I stop and ask my colleagu

ocha-chino for myself and he looks at me like I'd grown a third eye. I expla

day," I hear a voice sound from b

o," I greet my jerk of

se, call me Jake," he says se

ine thanks," I say silently pra

to sit and I happily decline. I look behind me and Mpho

as I make my way onto the elevator. Chan

ure running towards it but I let it close. Oops I mouth.

o the reason behind my dropping a very hot cup of hot chocolate all o

go, leaving us with his douche of a son. All he does is slee

er he does when he's supposed to be working. I'm

good mood as the elevator doors open and I

s existence throughout the week.

friends, taken on writing again and I no longer e

an completely change your life? I gu

til this Friday morning. Because as I stare at the three w

e words would disappear. Onl

iss

. He misses you as a friend idiot! my conscious

ole. He would reply and say I should give him a chance and tell me how proud he is that I've open

ut my phone down. Leaving him on read as I ma

y s

earlier that week that they go out every Friday after work and th

er booth and I see Lebo

uinely curious. The two can't stand each other a

tie answers as everyo

think it's 4play," Ruan comments earning a p

y warmed up to them. I told them I'd always fou

ging me for more. I'm not much of a drinker but I can't he

umpteenth shot. Stopping in my tracks, I look o

l d