I'm Right Where You Left Me

nal cord whenever I am so so down. I don't know what that means but one thing is for sure, I always feel that s

ow. First, a decent job. A stable one on that matter. One that can pay our house's bill

ke my heart races in the most unexpected way and in the most unexpected scenario. Inshort, love l

or what. Back then, I always thought, I just have to finish studying in college, and that's it. I will have a dec

so badly, it will come to you, effortlessly. No, it's definitely not the case. And what if you're also not a

solely because of those insults from my very own parents and siblings, always saying that I am not

ump here in the rooftop of our apartment where I am right now? But, if I won't jump from right here, right now,

ecially my younger brother? Hmm. I don't think so. Nah. The amount of times he always picks fight with m

o single sob that can be heard from me, my tears are still doing it's job to show how much suffe

a joke that if ever I will jump from here in our rooftop, I will be dead the moment I reached the ground

still cannot achieve this suicidal plan of mine tonight, I don't think I wi

at my knees are shaking from fear while I stand here particularly in our sofa that's near the railings of our apar

th. One, two, three times. I am gaining back my lost con

e. I managed to bear the pain of my still shaking knees. Despite the darkness of my surroundings, I still tried to find a rope or something for the chan

al plan of jumping off from there. Once again, I felt dizzy just by looking a

Just by thinking of strangling my neck with a rope sends shivers throughout my body. I do thin

roblems that will come up your way. Plus, the fact, that they are already shining on their own. It's just surreal and so majestic t

want to burden them anymore. They can just think that when I vanish, they will gain more fro

to take care of my family. And lastly, I asked Him to give my life

od gave me a second chance even after killing myself tonight, I promis

an even raised my other foot after that, something freaking cold suddenly grasp my arm. To my utter

o calm down. But, my whole body is still shaking from the shock that struck me a whil

tedly. I swear I wanted to faint right there and then but my curiosity go

a freaking ghost. The trembling of my body intensified, I really wan

black robe is standing right in front of m

e, that's why my cries a while ago suddenly resonated ugly tremb

re to freaking fetch me?" I asked setting aside my

dismay, he won't just budge. His hold is just so freaking tight, all the

en anger boiled within me. "Do you have a freaking crush on me? No? Then, let me go!" I can jus

use of fear again, but with something else. Something like, a flutterin

he right to kill