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rst time. We were going all out for this party. I know they won't remember it, but we don't care. These will be the only babies we have to do th

. We have been through so much that it's nice to finally feel like we have everything we had ever wanted and possibly more tha

gra, and I have opened a boutique for plus sized women. We all take turns working and have hired nothing but mothers. We are a little community that help and support each oth

king the lead and planning this party would give me back my husband that used to be so full of life. He just needed to find that one thing that

out. So, far the clothes are all sold out at our boutique and online. We couldn't keep up with all the orders. Serenity and I have been working a lot but thankfully Etha

s been close but lately it seems like she is pushing me away. I know having a new baby is hard, but she went from always being around to making excuses all the time. She hasn't

I didn't want to deal with the mess, so we rented a hall. We rented a bunch of bouncy houses. We got food vendors and a few clowns. I just hoped

t team. He got Aniyah and I grabbed Andre. Some of the guests were already here so I hurried inside. Serenity and Ethan were already here since they helped get everything

amazing in

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yone looks. You just won

ow. Kaden and Junior were already here so, where is she? He said she was running a little late because she had a few things to do since she was baby free. If you ask me, she hasn'

in all this party was a huge success. I told Darius he should plan more events because he was damn good at it. He just kissed me and laughed as he walked away

and Kaden had no idea where she even was. He seemed worried but didn't really want to talk to me about it. Was something more going on that he wasn

down. I asked him to watch the twins so I could go over and just set my eyes on her myself to make sure everything is ok. I decided to call Serenity and see if she wanted to go with m

I haven't talked to her in days. I have been so busy that I didn't even see there could be a problem with her. I felt like such a horribl

is going on with he

been off since she had Junior. I just want her

elieve I m

e hours in at the boutique then all of us. You're also dealing with Darius an

ng and feel guilty when I can't fix it. I just hope

oing this because we lov

his bubbly baby self. I just don't know when

as he not living here? Serenity and I looked at each other and I could tell we were thinking the same thing. I guess we will never know unless we go and knock on the d

going on? Are y

and sat next to her. I didn't know what to do or say. She has always been so strong. Seeing her like this just broke my heart. I l

nd they put me on meds, but it made everything worse. They called it

rmal and a lot of mothers experience this. I had

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ing this up but where is

und here Kaden took Junior and is stayi

have a talk with him. I didn't want to over step here, but I just needed to talk to him about what was really going on. It had to be somet

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st felt guilty. I never wanted them to see me like this. Stacia was always so put together. She has this mom and career thin

once was. I lost my husband and my child because I couldn't get it together and he was worried that I couldn't take care of my son. What he didn't get was leaving

giving me. I wouldn't mind talking to Serenity more about it so I asked her if she would meet me for lunch tomorrow. I loved my sister but for now I just didn't need

ces with my son and laugh because I am so happy. I want to feel alive again instead of always feeling guilty for being sad. I had an amazin

me, he acts as if he doesn't believe me. Times like this I hated that he was a doctor because he acted as if I was a patient that neede

nity

suddenly, they are out in the world and no one ever tells you the loss you feel of them not being there anymore. I missed

darkest point of my life. I know they will be good for Tigra. She needed women that gets what she's going through.

I wanted a little girl, so we decided to start trying. We both wanted a big family and didn't want our kids to be too far apart

cia and I even started a cosmetics line. My career was in full bloom. Ethan's recording studio that he opened last year was finally taki

to get back into acting and now Stacia said he's being bombarded with scripts. I hope he finds a movie he's passionate about and gets his shine back.

l alone and they always know someone will be there to pick them up, then this world is a much better place to be in. It makes the darker days fewer and farther between. Knowin

er another hitting me at once. I couldn't live through this if I didn't have Ethan. Without his love I wouldn't have made it through all this pain and darkness. It made

of the day we could lose everything we own but if we have each other we still have everything we will ever need. Both Tigra and Stacia has become my family at a t